30 April 2015. Luxor, Egypt.
Sitting at my computer I began to feel energy coming in. I brought down the white sphere with my arms, until it was completely around me, then raised my central pillar and opened the lotus in the top of my field. Raising my arms up again I brought a sphere of Solar energy, slowly down into my energy-field. Then I had to bring another energy up from the earth. It was a black lotus. Never had one of those before! It completely folded up around me, so that I was sitting in the centre of it, with its petals closed above my head. I felt like I was in a dark cocoon, protected, but alone. I was aware of a lunar crescent at my third eye, and then the sun energy that I had brought down began to shine out of my heart, and light up the inside of the lotus.
I sat there for about 15 minutes, with just the lunar light at my forehead and the solar light in my heart. I seemed to be just shining this light. I felt like a seed in a seed pod, waiting to emerge. There seemed to be nothing I could do but wait and hold these two lights, but I felt like I was waiting for something to pass, something difficult and all I had to do was wait and hold the light.
After what seemed like ages, the petals at the top opened slightly and I could see a patch of blue sky. Again this lasted for a few minutes so I knew, that although that it was clearing ‘out there’, I still had to wait.
A few minutes later the OM symbol appeared in the blue sky above the lotus petals and I knew then that it was safe to emerge.
The next image I saw, as though I was being given an image of the future, beyond this experience of waiting, was of myself in some other place. I was living on a farm, more in my Goddess-self than my human-self. I had my arms raised to the sun. Then I knelt down and ran my hands and fingers through the soil, loving the earth, feeling my connection to its fertility.
I saw myself walking up the trackway to the yard and I stood in the centre of it, and once again raised my arms to the sky. I became a tree, huge and green, with large fruits growing from my branches. Then people began to appear and they each plucked a fruit from the tree. They opened the fruit and it was full of seeds, like a pomegranate, rich and red and full of potential. Then each of these people took their fruit and walked out of the place in all directions, like they were walking on a giant spider-web, to all corners of the Globe. The tree reminded me of the Egyptian carvings of the Goddess in the Tree, feeding the people.
The last thing to appear was a giant Cobra, whose energy covered the entire place. She was its protector, protecting the Divine Feminine energy from all harm.
Then the energies faded.
Looks like we are going to go through quite a challenging time around here. Feels like mourning, and reminds me of when my sister died suddenly, ten years ago. I grieved, but I also knew where she was, and I knew that she was back ‘home’. So I was glad for her, but sad at the same time.. I realised that it is a person’s Soul energy that we miss when someone dies, their essence. Once they have left it is a reminder to us, on an unconscious level, that they have returned to their Soul home and we are still here! Weirdly, as a medium, I was still able to communicate with her, so I really did have to put my money where my mouth was. Did I believe in the immortality of the Soul or not? Yes, I did, and my sister helped me to really live that belief.
Now, it looks like I have to do the same again. Glad I am energetically prepared! But beyond that, is my dream, so it will be worth going through it, even if it is hard work getting there.