Dimensions and Planes.

Ever since I began my conscious development in this lifetime I have never understood the information about us, as Humans, moving into higher dimensions in our physical bodies. It never made any sense to me because, I know that we are in a physical body, living in a physical world, bound by physical laws. BUT, I also understand that we don’t understand the full capabilities of those Laws and therefore we don’t utilise them the way we could do.

Seth (Jane Roberts) explains that “subconsciously, there is no limit, really, to what the mind can accomplish. On this plane, you must work within certain limits. Man simply cannot use all of his abilities on the earth plane indiscriminately.”

I also know that we, in consciousness, can communicate and connect to other dimensions and Planes, but we don’t inhabit them, and we still remain very physical.

So I asked my guides for more understanding of this and they sent me  the first book by Seth (Jane Roberts) that I had not read before, and Seth goes into that very subject! So I have taken the information and created a graphic to help explain it. I always understand better with images!dimensions

“Consider then a network of wires, somewhat like a maze of interlocking wires endlessly constructed, so that looking through them there would seem to be no beginning and no end. Your plane could be likened to a small position between four very spindly and thin wires, and my plane could be likened to the small position in the neighbouring wires on the other side. Yet not only are we on different sides of the same wires, but we are at the same time either above or below, according to your viewpoint. (Think of our belief that heaven is above us and hell below). If you consider the wires forming cubes then the cubes could also fit one within the other without disturbing the inhabitants of either cube one iota: and these cubes are also within cubes, which are themselves within cubes, and I am speaking now of only the small particle of space taken up by your plane and mine. Again now think merely in terms of your plane, bounded by its small spindly set of wires, and my plane on the other side. These have also boundless solidity and depth, yet in usual circumstances to one side, the other is transparent. You cannot see through, but the two planes move through each other constantly.

I have initiated the idea of motion, for true transparency is not the ability to see through, but to move through. This is what I mean by the Fifth dimension. The fifth dimension is Space. The fourth dimension is Time.

Now, if you remove the wires and cubes, things behave as though the wires and cubes were still there. They are constructs necessary to make things comprehensible. For all practical purposes, we must behave as if the wires are there. There are certain planes which I (Seth) cannot glimpse from my viewpoint. I realise that the changes that must occur before I can view those other planes will occur in me, not in the other planes. Again, if you will consider our maze of wires, I will ask you to imagine them filling up everything that is, with your plane and my plane like two small bird’s nests in the net-like fabric of some gigantic tree.

If you consider the wires again, you could view them as solidified emotion, woven together, however, with the strong cohesive and stiffening power of the intellect. With feeling alone, although it is the basis, you would have an inconsistent, very precarious framework. Reason,nests7 is the form that disciplines and upholds these frameworks.

You consider that these wires are also mobile, constantly trembling, and also live, in that they not only carry the stuff of the Universe but are themselves projections of this stuff. However, it (the structure) is no more actually seen or touched than is the buzzing of a million invisible bees.”

So, to sum it up, we live on the Earth plane, our guides live on another plane, and there are many other planes with their own laws, which also exist, and which we, and they, can enter but will not be seen in, or maybe occasionally glimpsed.  On the earth plane we exist in the third dimension and are governed by the fourth, and the fifth, i.e Time and Space. When we become more skilled in working with Time, we are able to access other lifetimes, other times in other places and experience Time as a framework rather than as a linear progression. While doing earthwork we can traverse Time and gain information from times past which has been lost to our present selves. We also learn to work in the fifth dimension of Space. I will go into both of these dimensions in more detail later, giving you examples of how it works, in my experience of earthwork.

The dimensions are not places we inhabit, like the Planes, but are energetically experienced.  We cannot live in it as we can live in other planes of existence.

So, the dimensions and Planes are different things, and the only way we are going to get out of this Plane is by leaving our physical body and going back to the Soul Plane. And as we chose to be here in the first place, we may as well get on with it!

Gaia Method Symbols.

Here are a few more of the symbols/energies which you may receive. They can also be received during any other activation, during either the first or second level. If your guides know that you will not receive any more Gaia Method attunements, then they will give you the energies you need now.

Sometimes too, when I am passing a Reiki attunement, Gaia Method symbols are given. There are no hard and fast rules with energy!

Often, while passing an attunement, I will see information in the form of a symbol, which is meant as an energy of Purpose for that person.


Adam,The Perfected Man.

Adam, the Perfected Man, This symbol was received in Luxor and represents a man who is connected to his Divinity, while being solidly grounded, his legs firmly anchored to the earth and aware of his relationship to the Mother. He is perfectly balanced between Heaven and Earth, whole and healthy. He is not the Adam who was tempted by Eve.

He is the man who is fed by the Mother in Nature and values his relationship to her. He knows his place in the world and knows that all the abundance of the Earth is there for him. In recognizing the power of nature, and having respect for it, all his needs are met.




anchor-resizedThe Anchor is both a personal symbol and a working symbol. As a personal symbol, it tells us when we have to ‘stay put’, and firmly anchored in a place.


As a working symbol, it acts as an anchor point for different energies, both in bodies of water and in the earth. I usually see it as a gold anchor.





The Mirror of Isis.

The Mirror of Isis allows us to reflect on the past and to see how our past might create our future.


On a working level it is a deflector. Energy coming from one level of the earth’sfield, can be deflected by the mirror into other levels. (Weirdly, I found this website which spoke of an object which Akhenaten used. It was a light reflector. I would dismiss it except for the fact that the Mirror of Isis does the same thing, energetically, and my guides told me years ago, that many of our ‘symbols’ were, anciently, energy devices. Devices which were once physical but were no longer necessary as we could now use the energy thought-forms of the same devices. So who knows? ).



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Brigit’s Flame/Mantle


Brigit’s Flame/Mantle is a symbol of protection. This symbolizes the mantle, or cloak, of the Goddess Brigit. It provides physical protection, in the form of food, shelter, water, heat, etc. The ‘hood’ or flame of the symbol can be either at the back of our head, protecting your ‘thinking’ from the thoughts of others, especially people who like to mentally control others, or if the hood is down, protecting your back, it is doing just that, protecting your body. While I was receiving this symbol, I was aware of a band of energy, which I could somehow tap into to get the energy of the symbol. Every time I thought of the symbol I was aware of this band. I really ‘got’ that the symbols were really just pictures of the particular energy we were accessing. The symbols just make it easier to do.


Goddess Cobra. The cobra is an energy that protects your feminine energy from out-of-balance male sexual energy. If you are developing as a representative of the Divine Feminine and you have experienced abuse in your past and have not yet healed it enough to protect yourself, this symbol gives you the feeling of safety and security from men who do not have their own sexual energy under control.  This applies equally to gay men, who might also have a well-developed female side and who have a history of abuse. It comes into effect when yu are doing energy-work and your Divine Feminine energy is accessible.



 The Whale.  The whale is able to work both in the water and the in the air, and so he can work within both elements. He is able to bring his thinking into the emotional realm, and vice versa. This symbol is also for people who have a direct connection to those denizens of the deep and their ability to communicate vibrationally above and below water, through sound.




The Volcano. Being attuned to volcanos is about the ability to channel powerful creative forces from deep in the earth into our world. Working with volcanic forces is also about being sensitive to older volcanic activity and the rocks which still hold that high intense volcanic energy, such as granite outcrops, etc. These places still contain the original energy of the volcano and so, they are places where it is possible to access other dimensional energies, such as those within the faery realm.


This isOpeness - Copy the energy of Openness. When we are opening to our guides and to incoming energy we often stand with our arms out, palms raised and open, facing up. This allows us to bring in the necessary energies, when we feel them, even if we don’t know exactly what they are.

Because you are attuned to this symbol, you automatically take this position when your body consciousness perceives that energy is about to be received. You will feel the need to stand in this position and when you do, the energies well flow into your field and into your crown centre. It is the position of priests/priestesses in the temple.


white dragon vortex keyThe White Serpent Vortex. This represents the White dragon key, but the dragon looks more like a long white serpent which comes in from a higher, elemental dimension than our 3rd dimension. It is a higher frequency of energy, which spins in your field. Often these vortices need to be anchored in places which are not physically on the ground, such as high in buildings, old castles or churches. Often, Gateway sites consist of two or more levels, and the white Vortex lies on the upper ones.



mer - CopyMer, the Sacred Hoe. This is a hieroglyph and is a sacred tool used to create the foundation lines in the building of temples in Egypt. First, the Pharoah measured out, with a golden cord, the plan of the intended temple, and then the foundation rut, was gouged out with the sacred hoe.

When we are creating sacred energetic structures, this is still the process we use, albeit in energetic form. As soon as you see this hoe in your mind’s eye, you will know that you are creating a geometric sacred space, and that the ‘structure’ will take time to complete, necessitating multiple downloads in different parts, and dimensions of space. Sounds complicated but it really isn’t!


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Hathor.  Becoming attuned to this symbol makes you a channel for the Goddess Hathor, Egyptian goddess of the Earth, much like the Irish goddess Brigit. You energetically ‘become’ her and while you are in her ‘mode’, everything you do is what she does! She is the Goddess of Earth fertility, feeding her ‘children’. She is Mother, who loves all. She is the physical Earth, out of which everything grows.




path to the sun - CopyPath to the Sun. This is a Purpose symbol, meaning it is another of those symbols which is a little like a ‘program’. It instils in you the desire to walk the path to the Sun, to a better life, to the fertility of the sun, to success, etc. It is the Solar horizon like the Aten, as worked with by Akhenaten. The meeting place of Heaven and Earth!




REIKI Attunements.

I offer Reiki attunements to Master level, but the attunements may also include Gaia Method symbols/keys if that is magical-lotuswhat your soul needs. As I have learned many other Reiki modalities in my journey to the Gaia Method, you might also receive any of these. As usual, it is very much your soul’s needs which dictate what symbols you receive. You don’t need to be a Gaia Method Healer to receive any of the Gaia Method symbols either. If I am passing an attunement and your soul shows me you need to receive any of the Gaia Method symbols/energies, or any other energies, then I give them.

If, however, you would prefer to keep the Reiki attunements pure, I am more than happy to keep within that system’s boundaries.

Whether you receive a distant attunement or an in-person attunement, you will receive a written copy of the attunement, a certificate of completion and a writeup of the energies you received.

For distant attunements:

Reiki levels 1 and 2:  £50.

If you want to receive regular, or booster, Reiki attunements, to increase your ability to channel, or to move through a particularly tricky issue: £10 per attunement.

If you want me to send you a Reiki attunement along with your Gaia Method Attunement, just add £30 extra to the cost of the Gaia Method attunement.

All payments can be made through this page. 

18 July 2016. Spiritual advertising…

This is not a bashing post, but a post about how easy it is to be manipulated when you are on Spiritual path. At the end of this post you will understand what I mean.

A few weeks ago I received a message in my Linkdin inbox from Sibyl English. She is a lovely singer and also the founder of a spiritual magazine for women, created in the U.S. Sibyl Magazine,  for the Spirit and Soul of Woman.

The message was an invitation to submit an article of my work, and if chosen by the magazine I would then be a writer in this magazine for one calendar year, writing one article per month. She sent me a free online copy of the magazine. Looking through it I felt that its intention was basically for advertising individual women and their work, as every article written by one of the contributing authors was accompanied by their advert. The magazine felt like a ‘healer’ catalogue. But maybe I was misreading it?sibyl mag image I read the submission guidelines anyway.


“Would you like to submit a contributing article sharing your insight and expertise for women, wisdom and wellness?

Our editorial staff have an ACCEPTANCE SEASON which runs for a brief 3½ month period within the calendar year.

  • The start date to send in your article submission: April 1, 2016
  • The DEADLINE for all incoming submissions: July 15, 2016 *Don’t delay! Send your article in at your earliest convenience.

Only one (1) article submission should be sent in at this time for review by the editorial staff. *If your article is selected for publishing, you will be contacted and given further details as to how Sibyl Magazine will go about showcasing your talent for the duration of 2017.”

Each article was only 500 words and there are 30 women writers, each one submitting their short article every month. I decided not to submit one. A week later my guides came in and started to give me info so I wrote down what they told me. As I was writing I began to ‘get’ that this was the 500 words for the article submission. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I was supposed to write for them. Maybe it was just my fear of being out in the world? The writing was exactly 500 words!

I sent it off and my guides kept telling me that it would be accepted. It was, but I didn’t feel excited about it.

This morning I received my congratulations email with instructions on how to proceed. I had been selected to have my literary works (??) published in the pages of Sibyl Magazine. Literary works? Who am I, James Joyce? I began to read the accompanying pdf, which I had to respond to with a yes or no. The entire piece of writing was one big manipulation of spiritual beliefs.

I could go through the whole piece of writing, pointing out which bit is designed to make me feel like an important spiritual writer, using flattery and telling me how I manifested this opportunity with the help of the Universe, etc, etc. And how lucky I am to have been chosen; not everyone gets this opportunity, AND I had to act fast or someone else might take my ‘place’. And, then we all know how important it is that us women work together in this world, sharing our knowledge and expertise.

But I was still waiting for the biggest hook of all… the Incoming Writers Offer! And quoting all the usual stuff, i.e. the Law of Attraction, not keeping yourself secret (God-forbid), you need to get your message out there stuff and all for a 75% discount!

At first, I thought this offer might be optional, so I had another look through the magazine, and sure enough, there was an advert on every written article. But did I have a choice, could I choose not to have an advert? Then I saw it, on the PDF, in smaller print and off to the side:

“As it is a requirement to purchase some form of advertisement, even if it is only a business card-sized advert, we dramatically slash our advertisement rates by 75%.”  So for the smallest, business card sized advert beside my writing, I would only have to pay the sum of $450, down from $1800. How generous of them! Effectively I would be paying them to write for them! They must be raking it in. But maybe I am being unfair, perhaps there are many women who benefit from this.

BUT, I don’t agree with manipulating and seducing women into believing something which is not true. And being seduced by a woman professing to be spiritual? Some might say that she was just being smart, entrepreneurial, etc. But I dislike and mistrust how these businesses capitalise on people’s spiritual work. This client-getting is very old-school and is a negative, male business model.  It feels greedy and dishonest.ishtar-babylonian-goddess

Do you think, as someone who embodied the Divine Feminine energy, that you would have to go out and hook into people’s fears in order for them to buy your service, your energy, your creation?  Can you imagine the Goddess going out and looking for people, trying to convince them to buy from her? A door-to-door sales-goddess? If I am a person who wants to learn from the Goddess, do I sit down and wait for her to come and knock on my door or do I go in search of her?

Divine Feminine power lies in trusting. She gets on with her life, filling the world with energy, and people find her! She does what she loves, be it art, writing, healing, etc. But she doesn’t push! She allows. She does not tell you that if you don’t hurry, you will miss her. She doesn’t tell you she is the one who will make your dreams come true. She might make your dreams come true, but she never tells you that, that’s not what she is there for. She trusts your soul, and she trusts her own knowledge and the Way of the Goddess. THAT is woman’s way… fear is not!

So do not allow other people’s desire for money to make you scared. The people who need you WILL find you, because you share your work, you share your knowledge; you share your art. You might well sell your art/writing etc. but you are putting it out there on your terms and no-one else’s. Trust yourself always. You won’t miss the boat!

Just make yourself available, and when you are ready, the people you are supposed to meet, you will meet. Trust your Goddess-self to know the way!


15th July 2016 Separating.

Having been told to begin the parting process I began by separating last night. Omar went downstairs to check the animals, and his family, and I began to feel an energy in my stomach again. A line was placed in each h

Untitledqueen's line of energy qurnaand, each going in opposite directions and I had to blow energy along a central line. It was like the shape of a cob of corn with a leaf at each side.

Then I found myself pulling in the central cord, back into my tan tien. It went a long way! Once it was back in my belly I felt another connection, going in the same direction, but slightly to the left of it. There was a small gold pin at the end of a thin line, the earth anchoring pin. I gently picked it up and reeled it back into my belly too.

Then I saw myself placing a gold king’s crown on someone’s head. Might have been Omar.

I was still feeling energy so I waited to see what would happen next. A large diamond energy, filled with diamond layers, was impressed into the front of my energy-field and it continued moving into me until I was in the central diamond. This is obviously the downloads for the Diamond Merkaba, the energies which will need activating in Sahl Hasheesh. I didn’t know that that could happen! It just goes to show, we really are just programmable vessels!

It took me a little while to realise that the gold line connections were the first ones I had made when I first moved here. Within a couple of weeks of being here, I was being visited by a young Egyptian girl’s spirit. It frightened the hell out of Omar, who still believes in Djinns! This girl told me that she had been buried with her mistress, the Queen, because she held all of the queen’s secrets. It had nothing to do with her needing her handmaid in the afterlife! But this girl was my guide to the energies here and to what needed to be anchored here. I saw her a week ago, standing by my window, but she seemed faint, like a ghost rather than a living spirit. I didn’t understand what she was doing there…but now I do!

(Having published this two days after I wrote it, ad having had another, smaller, diamond Merkaba download, I think it is to do with the programs for both Sahl Hasheesh and Hurghada. They are obviously connected in some way. The reason I know that is because my guides asked me today, 17th, if I gave them permission for the downloading of the Light codes for Hurghada and then they requested the same permission for Sahl Hasheesh!)

17 July 2016 Seth and Pain.

jrobsLast night I went to bed reading Seth: The Early Sessions. This is literally the very beginning of Seth’s communication with Jane Roberts and Robert Butts. At one point Robert asks Seth why he, Rob) had had so many back problems the previous year and Seth’s response was: Vertebra 1 didn’t channel vital force through organism. Restrained by fears pinching the nerves. Expansion of spirit allows physical organism to expand, releases pressure.

Now I have always understood that physical pain is often caused by emotional issues, past and present, but this was the first time that it actually made sense! When we are scared our muscles get tight and this then puts physical pressure on parts of our body. It isn’t just that nebulous awareness that our emotions cause energetic blockages, but that our emotions and beliefs affect our bodies, in very physical ways! Our bodies react to our emotions and beliefs.

I have been grappling with a very painful neck for years, since I began to do this cycle of earth healing. But here in Egypt it has gotten so much worse. Before I went back to the UK for a year it was very painful and so I asked my guides to give me some understanding on what was going on with it. They suggested the Alexander technique. Most of my problem was postural, sitting at the computer all day, every day in the hot summers, usually crocheting or knitting when I wasn’t writing.

When I got back to the UK I went to see Melvyn, who I have been having treatment from since 2000, and he opened it up again for me. Everything was fine until I came back to Egypt! Within a month my neck was really painful and tight again. It’s another hot summer, and I am pretty immobile again. It’s just far too hot to go out so I spend all day in the flat.

DiamantI started doing some neck-muscle releasing exercises and that is helping but finding Seth’s words made all the difference. So this morning, up at 5.15am, I did some healing to expand the energy in my neck and loosen up the emotions that were causing the pain. That turned out to be interesting too as I learned another use for the Diamond merkaba. I placed my hands on my neck but then felt the urge to move them out into my energy field. I saw the diamond merkaba and felt the need to expand it. I slowly moved my hands out until it stopped by itself, at the 6th layer. This layer is the Spider energy level. Her energy is black and red and these colours of hers run through the planet, in a giant web of energy and then out into space, a Universal web, the web of creation and energy which feeds the planet and holds it stable. I could see the energy open up around my head and had an image of Mary with her Star crown. I will to see the results of this, even though this merkaba might have nothing to do with my neck whatsoever… but everything to do with earthenergy-work.

As Gaia Method healers our bodies are also the reflection of the body of the Earth, and there is huge fear in the planet right now, so maybe we, as healers, and all healers, need to be putting way more energy into loosening up these tight spots and allowing the energy to flow back in, stabilising the areas and bringing in more love and less rigidity.

14th July 2016. White horse, Dragon vision.

white horseI awoke last night when the a/c beeped, telling me it was time to refill it. Normally I am too tired to bother, especially at 2.30 am, but this time, there was no hesitation. I felt wide awake.

When it was full, which took half an hour because there is little water during the night here in Luxor, I wheeled it back into the reception room, where we sleep for the summer, turned it on low and got back into bed…and couldn’t get back to sleep! I tossed and turned but then began to feel the familiar energy-flowing across my eyelids. It had been going on intermittently for the past few days.

A while later, a beautiful, pristine white horse appeared in front of my vision. On its forehead/third-eye was a crystal, which constantly changed colour. The picture expanded and the horse was standing in the shallow waters of a beach, facing inland. She reminded me of the waves. As I continued to watch the horse she changed into a huge, pristine white dragon. This wasn’t a dragon I have seen before as it looks like the other coloured dragons except that she is pure white and connected to the earth’s creation energies. The other white dragon I see is more like a white feathered serpent who flies like the Luck dragon in the Never-ending story! This white dragon was altogether different!white_dragon_by_gloriusdragonlover-d3fpc2i

As I watched the dragon she held out a huge taloned foot (?) and in it was a seed of pure white light, which glowed brightly. She instructed me to swallow this light, which surprised me. I usually put it in a pouch or something, but I did as she instructed. When I swallowed it I changed and now I was in a sparkling white suit of armour, a light knight, and I held with my right arm a white shield, with a red cross on it. The Crusader’s cross. Then I heard ‘Beaumont’.

This morning I googled Beaumont in connection with the Knights Templars. The Knights Templars are a big part of my work with the Gaia Method and the Sword of Arthur was received at a Knights Templar chapel in Hampshire.


f3a5c1e256b317d213687babfe2bd73bThis made total sense as I had also received the name Lazarus a few days ago too. So, apart from moving to a lovely, nourishing place, free of ‘history’ and heavy energies, there is a lot of work to do there!

Beaumont was a Knights Templar preceptory, where they raised revenue for their crusades. They also were used for the training of future Knights. My guides had already told me, that aside from the energy-work I had to do here, I would also be able to raise money to build my own farm/healing centre in the future.

Or they are saying that work needs to be done at Beaumont!

Later in the evening, they told me to begin the process of ‘parting’. I wasn’t sure what this meant, but the following day I understood.

(I don’t have the names of the artists who took these pictures or painted them, so if they are yours please let me know and I will credit them to you. They are beautiful!)


16th July 2016. Tony Robbins, I am not your Guru.

Tony Robbins

Tony Robbins

I watched “Tony Robbins”, I am not your guru”, last night and this morning. I have always been sceptical of growth leaders but this film I was excited to watch. I had seen short clips of some of his interventions before and I wanted to see more. I’ve never trusted those huge ‘out-there’ motivational speakers. I always saw it as more of a business than a therapy!

But the film was really good, and I cried through most of it! The man has so much power and passion! I wondered how on earth his wife lived with that!  But I did use the film to get to the bottom of some of my own stuff. Having trained in NLP many years ago I know that a lot of what he does is NLP but that works too! He manages to combine it with emotional work that makes sense to me.

It is easy, when you are supported by dozens of people, all on the same healing journey,  to release and heal old stuff, but you still have to go out into the world and be with people who might be the complete opposite! That’s where the real work happens.

At the end of the film, and the end of the event, there is a meditation that he does with everyone, so I did that with them. After a short preparatory heart-filling exercise I had to find three memories of when I felt grateful for something. I allowed my mind to ‘search’ for a memory. The memory that came was not one I was expecting but I heard myself say “I am grateful for my birth”. I realised that without this life on earth in a physical body I could never accomplish all that I have. My body was a gift, my doorway and vehicle in this world. It is the first time I have ever felt grateful for life! I had never looked at it that way! I felt a profound gratitude for my body and for the opportunities of living it afforded me.


One Day in Graiguenamanagh by Chapboy.

The next memory I had was of standing in the woods in Graiguenamanagh, my hometown in Ireland. I spent most of my childhood in this sanctuary of trees. I felt immense gratitude for the gift of Nature, I felt how nature nurtured my body and how it kept me alive and connected.

The third memory I was grateful for was all the people in my life, without whom I could never grow! All of the challenges they presented me with so that I could become myself, a process which is ongoing!

All the while I was watching the film, it showed Tony Robbins at his house beside the sea and I kept feeling grateful for the fact that I will be spending time living by the sea again, and this time I am going to really appreciate it! I never really appreciated it before but I want to spend as much time as possible in the fresh air, walking and swimming.

After I had finished the movie I thought about my relationships with men and how I have always allowed men to stop me from moving forward. They have always been an obstacle. I couldn’t do something because they would not want me to. Or their feelings and fears were so much more important than mine that I had to support them and thereby lose my own vision. That is such an old pattern and my stay here in Luxor has really gone to deeper levels of that. Even though my stay here was about my work on energy-levels, which is my raison d’etre, I was also here to heal deeper abuse stuff, and help Omar with a soul challenge. That’s a lot of stuff to manage!

My energy-work takes precedence and I allow nothing to get in the way of that. But personal stuff, like sex, cooking, doing what I love, finding time for myself etc., that has been extremely challenged here. It is, after all, a Muslim culture, and men are the next thing to God, or so they believe. So much like my Catholic upbringing! They are also completely useless at looking after themselves and so it falls to the wife to look after them. I have been challenging that and still challenge it. I have my own work to do and I am too old to be a grown man’s mother.

I have always had this pattern too, that I have never gotten to the bottom of, that I work fine when I am on my own. I am inspired and energetic and can work for days. But as soon as a man is around I stop. Literally, I cannot do anything. It’s like this internal switch gets flipped on and then I become the servant, waiting for my orders. Or I have to keep them company, be available for them and quiet. I have always wondered where this came from and I realised that this is a pattern I picked up, not only from my own father, but from my best-friend’s father!  I spent a lot of time around there, in her house, and they were a very traditional Irish home. Everything revolved around ‘Daddy’. Daddy ate first, made all of the rules, and you had to be quiet when he was around.

That’s not to say that I am always acquiescent, like Omar says, I would be perfect if it wasn’t for my tongue! I challenge the bullshit, but I still have the patterns!

Relationships were modelled by my best friend’s parents, my own parents were different. But I did learn to put my father’s emotions before my own, they were more important. I felt ‘pulled’ by his emotional needs for company or sharing. I didn’t always want to spend time with him, but how could I say no? I felt enormously guilty for being so independent and when I finally left home, telling him I wanted to do it on my own, he took me at my word and rarely helped me again. So as an adult,in a relationship, I learned to give in. If I acted too independently I believed that I would be rejected and left with no support. All unconsciously, of course.

vanhausenBut since returning from England I feel an overwhelming sense of opening myself up to life, an opening that feels like my entire energy-field is opening like a flower and that I am walking into a new life, a life where I can feel nurtured and joyful. Creative and safe And I won’t allow anyone to shut that down. I have worked far too hard for this to stop it now. For the first few years here I ‘people pleased’ like there was no tomorrow! I HAD TO BE  accepted, it felt too risky and dangerous not to be. I was in a strange country, with a different language and no friends. But no matter how much I tried to fit in, it never worked. I would always be the foreign wife! I wasn’t Egyptian and would never be. Returning here I made the decision that I would not get involved in their lives again. I was glad I was foreign and there were gifts in that. I am free to do what I want and I saw here, that doing what I wanted had a positive impact on the women around me. I didn’t have to sacrifice myself for their good.

So I am changing my habit patterns, changing how I respond when my Egyptian husband comes in and expects me to mother him. To be fair, he is better than most Egyptian men, but old habits die hard, as I know, and he is still changing his habits too. But often his changes come as a result of mine so I will keep on changing, as I have been doing for over 20 years.

I am glad I watched Tony Robbins, as it brought me back to how I used to live, surrounded by people on their journey. Surrounded by the excitement of emotional discovery and fulfilment. I want more of that again.

My husband Omar has just returned from his work in the field and as soon as he comes in I am distracted. I ask him to wait until I am finished writing. I can feel him looking at me, wanting my attention, and I feel irritated. But he knows when I am working because he sees my energy-field is ‘light’! Then he knows to wait! Somehow, when I am ‘working’ he knows that this is not the right time to talk. Thank God he gets that. He told me that he felt that my energy-field was full of strong light, and that it created a boundary around me that he couldn’t penetrate! That’s the kind of energy you need to have here. And what I discover is that the energy of openness keeps you safe! Openess is its own protection!

What a great way to start the day!


13 July 2016. Crystal Activation.

ruby spiderReceived an activation today which might be part of my preparation for moving to the new place. I was sitting at the computer, which I do most days here when I am not crafting, when I felt and saw a golden rod being activated in my body and along it, crystals were lit up.

I looked to see what the crystals were and where they were being activated. Amber was in the crown, where I expected it to be as I was given this energy whilst on holiday in Grau du Roi with Cheryl Brennan a few years ago.  Emerald is at the third eye. Blue Sapphire at the throat, diamond at the heart. I couldn’t see any more below that for a few minutes, probably because I was ‘expecting’ to see more crystals all the way down! But then I saw the red and black spider of the earth-lines sitting on my abdomen. It was holding a large red ruby at my Tan Tien/Hara. The crystals were all active and shining brightly. Next small white wings appeared at my temples, like the Hat of Hermes! actrivation

The imagery changed and then I saw myself planting this rod on the beach, close to the water’s edge in the Red Sea. I remembered, before coming to Egypt, how I had been given the energies for Luxor too, but then it was a large wooden pole, like a central support for a round house, and I had to plant it at the water’s edge of the Nile! So these were the layers I was going to be working on while I stay there.

Next, I could feel the energy of a Native American warrior, not my usual Nat. American guide. I asked him who he was and he gave me his name, Red Feather. Ah, I thought, time for art and writing then! I will write the story of how I got to know Red Feather another day.  He placed an eagle feather in my body, facing downwards. The tip of the feather  at the bottom of my spine and the shaft end is at my throat.

Then I hear “ Fluctuations in the Earth’s magnetic field, Stabilise. Reconnect it. Mass extinction.” I immediately shared the message with Eartha, as we have both been getting stuff like this since 2006. She felt it was a ‘possible time-line’ reality. One time-line would be the outcome our guides suggests, and the other time-line was not!

I thought about that and wondered if that is what Red Feather meant. That we could stabilise it, minimising the damage? There has been so much already! I wondered what a fluctuation in the magnetic field of the planet would be like? So I googled it! Hmm…not so good then!!! So maybe Eartha is right. Maybe we need to work on stabilising the field so that didn’t get to experience what would otherwise be pretty disastrous outcome.

Maybe that is the next step!




Current Events Advice from ‘Upstairs’. 30th June 2016.

20150823_194005It is critical that you remain balanced in this situation. People’s fears will arise and will appear to flood the country and the world, much as the earth’s waters have flooded the Earth. Now it is time for humans to play their part. Let us guide you through this difficult terrain until you find you your new Niche. It will shortly appear on the horizon, like a beacon of hope in the darkness. Do not be dismayed at what you see happening around you. Just let it flow past, like flotsam on the water. Let this river run past you and soon clear waters will come into view. It is time to shake the world out of its complacency. Time for the world to awaken and see the damage it has created through its lack of generosity, its lack of faith in Divine Providence and its lack of faith in Love to carry them forward.
Let us all join together now in groups and pave the way for a more balanced and loving future. A future where all who share earth’s abundance with others and who love one another will flourish. Love WILL outweigh the ‘bad’ here, just have faith and trust that all will be well, and all will be well. Plan your lives carefully, thinking about the impact you have on the planet and you will find that you are looked after magnificently. There is nothing to fear but fear itself, a saying which has been said many times and remains true to this day. There is never anything to fear if you have complete faith that your souls will guide you, if you let them, into calmer waters. It might take extra effort on your part, but isn’t that effort worth it?