The Grail and the Blood sacrifice.

February 26, 2014February 26, 2014 / Ann Murphy / Leave a comment

‘I think that at the supper I neither receive flesh nor blood, but bread and wine; which bread when it is broken, and the wine when it is drunken, put me in remembrance how that for my sins the body of Christ was broken, and his blood shed on the cross. …I ground my faith upon God’s word, and not upon the church… The faith of the church must be tried by God’s word, and not God’s word by the church; neither yet my faith.’ Jane Grey to John Feckenham, 1554 (Nine days Queen of England before Elizabeth I)

There is another aspect to the Grail work that I will talk about here:

As you progress further with your work as a Planetary healer the archetypes of the ‘grail which holds the blood’ becomes less of a symbol and more of a reality, although it is not the ‘blood of Christ’ which you hold in the vessel but the ‘blood’ of your own sacrifice. Blood is your life force, it is what keeps you alive. When you are doing something in your life which means you have to sacrifice something precious it is like sacrificing your own blood. It is emotionally painful but necessary. It is also one of the hardest things to do. My first experience of this came when I was in Lyme Regis with Chris doing my 7th Gateway Initiation. It was an emotionally difficult time:

24 August 2005.

“While I was in Lyme Regis with Chris we stayed in Bridport. While I was trying to fathom everything that I was feeling I had a vision. Quetzalcoatl appeared in front of me and he was holding a carved stone bowl of water in his hands. He held the water out for me to take and drink, so I did. When the bowl was empty he remained there. I then saw myself cutting my left wrist and allowing the blood to poor into the stone bowl. When it was full the Quetzalcoatl priest turned and walked up the steps of the Serpent Pyramid at Chichen Itza and offered it up to the Sun. He told me that in order to partake of the Waters of Life I needed to sacrifice some of myself in return. This felt like the sacrificing of my own emotions in order to gain the gifts.”

I didn’t really understand what he meant, in hindsight, but I do now. Receiving these energies meant sacrifice on my part, sacrifice which would be experienced as challenging and painful and that has certainly proved to be the truth. Doing this work of bringing in the Gaia Method and doing the earth energy work has meant I have had to sacrifice much of what I wanted for my life. It also meant that I was sacrificing a ‘normal’ life. Although the gifts far outweigh the sacrifices they are nonetheless difficult!

There is a significant difference between the sacrifice of the wrist cut and the palm cut. The cutting of the wrists seems to be more of an emotional nature, like sacrificing your life for the greater work. This sacrifice is a gift to Humanity and signifies your readiness to work for the benefit of the whole. Cutting the palm of either hand is about the sacrificing of your resources, your give and take. It is a sacrifice you make yourself. If you have a vision about a heart sacrifice then that symbolic gesture is obvious. Your relationship needs, on all levels, are sacrificed for the greater good. A most painful experience indeed. These sacrifices are only ‘offered’ once you have reached a certain point in your own healing and can accept guidance from your guides and soul without allowing your own Will to get in the way. That is not to say that they are easy, they are not, but you understand at this point, the necessity of it, and are willing to let go of your own Will in order to achieve the necessary goals. This allowing is not a form of co-dependence, spiritual or otherwise, although at times you do question that, but you are consciously choosing this path and are fully aware of its implications. It is also not martyrdom, although at times you will question that too, especially if you are raised within a religious culture where martyrdom is seen as somehow desirable. There are fine lines between delusion and spiritual reality here! Recognising your own emotional and behavioural patterns is indispensable.

On another occasion, while doing energywork at the sea in Southsea, on MOD land, I had the following vision:

“I saw my left hand, but it was the hand of the Goddess Lakshmi and she was holding it out and up. In her palm was a golden lotus. A sword, like a scimitar, had its point in the centre of her palm and it rotated slightly into her flesh until drops of blood appeared. I thought this was a bit weird but I continued to watch. As the drops of blood came from her hand she allowed it to pour into the vortex, filling the area with her life-force. The entire area became red. Then I was Lakshmi, and I felt in my power as her, giving and yet powerful. I was aware of my/her energy filling this entire energy and bringing back the awareness of the Goddess into this male-dominated area of the land and sea. She was reclaiming her world and giving something back in return. I can’t help feeling that there is something about her own pain there as she has to be bled in order to give. ”

Now I understand what this was about. Lakshmi is the Goddess of Abundance and the scimitar is the Middle Eastern sword energy. It really was telling me about what I had to do here in Egypt. Coming here and helping financially has often felt like I was being ‘bled dry’ by the needs of the people around me. It has not been easy, especially as I have had to struggle so much myself in the process. It has been a sacrifice but it has allowed me to do a lot of energywork here, creating the network of energies which allows the Divine feminine to be anchored here again. The Goddess was sacrificing her own blood so she was choosing to do this for the good of the land and its people. At the time I received this vision I had no idea that I would be living here but it is certainly how things have worked out!

On another occasion, while receiving energy information about my husband, (19 may 2010):

“Last night I felt myself opening again. I raised my left hand high to bring something down and I saw both a flint dagger and a pink lotus being placed there. They seemed to be the same energy and initially I tried to separate them but I couldn’t so I had to let it be what it was. I then had to hold my right hand up and I brought the knife down and cut my right palm in a long cut. This felt a little freaky and I wasn’t sure if I hadn’t been reading too much of the Sookie Stackhouse books! Blood was flowing from my palm and then I saw Omar standing in front of me. He held the grail in his hands and I held my bleeding hand over it and allowed the cup to fill with my blood. When it stopped bleeding he brought the cup to his lips and drank it’s contents. He now had part of my essence in his body and was accepting my sacrifice.

Then I began to sprout branches from my body, like I was becoming a tree. Omar was still in front of me and I then said to him ‘Our fate is sealed, we are now One’. I was now standing beside him, on his right hand side and I had a long bow with arrows in my right hand. I was Artemis. He was now an Aztec warrior-priest and protector.”

Again this is exactly how things have worked out. I have sacrificed my own emotional needs for the past three years here and he has grown as a result. But this is the way it had to be if we were to work together as one unit.

The blood sacrifice is usually an emotional one as sometimes the necessity of working for Humanity means that your own needs are left behind. But in the process you heal deep-seated issues and complete challenges which have proved difficult in previous lives. So nothing is wasted.

As with all of this work your guides ALWAYS offer this to you. You do have a choice. You are never put in a position where you have to sacrifice anything. It is always your choice. If you choose not to accept the voluntary sacrifice then there is no judgement. As always these ‘gifts’ are offered in Love. Usually it is an ‘inner’ decision rather than a rational one as the soul recognises the symbolic energy but the rational mind may not, until much later.

Sometimes it is during an attunement that the Quetzalcoatl priest will appear. During a Reiki 2 attunement with a Gaia method healer the priest stood in front of her:

“Then, just when we though it was finished the priest was standing in front of her. He cut her wrists and then allowed the blood to pour into the bowl, with which he then walked up the pyramid, and offered it to the Gods”.

On another occasion, while doing another Reiki and Gaia Method attunement the priest appeared and asked the person if they wanted to accept their sacrificial path. She decided that she did not want to take this step. She was worried about having said no but another guide appeared and told her that there was no judgement and that everyone’s life, and path, was their own to choose.

Although, what I do find interesting is that so far, it is only women who are called upon to make this sacrifice! I haven’t had any experience of the sacrifice with the men who have received the attunements. Perhaps it is because women are embodying the Goddess and men have to learn to serve her once again. But maybe in the future that will change. I will have to wait and see.

It is easy though, to see how all of these sacrificial energies became misunderstood in the past, and where they all became physical sacrifices over time. They had the right idea but had lost their reverence for life and the understanding of the sacrifice.

The Chalice/Grail.

February 26, 2014August 1, 2024 / Ann Murphy / Leave a comment

This was written while I was still living in Egypt.

As with the Sword, again we are dealing with Arthurian myth, and also ancient symbols. These energies have many functions, but the prime energetic function of the chalice is a vessel, a vessel which holds divine energies. It is not an attunement energy, but something that you become as you continue to clear out your own personal issues – and devote yourself to service of the Planet and its healing. You become the vessel of Divine energies. This means you are an open channel and have agreed, with your guides and Elders, to be the receptacle of energies which can be placed or used in the environment to bring balance and healing.

Sometimes, when I am passing an attunement I am holding a chalice and giving a communion wafer to someone. This is usually because I am going to be giving a specific energy to someone. The communion wafer is the energy of the Mother. It is her ‘bread’, the bread of life which sustains us and is given as a gift from her chalice, her vessel. The ‘communion bread’ is her substance but it has also been charged with the Divine Masculine Solar energies and so it is a balance of both. But it remains symbolic of the knowledge and sustenance that is the gift of Mother Earth, to us. It is her divine gift of ‘communion’, in its real sense. Communing means to get very close to something or someone. Taking this communion into your body can’t get much closer that that.

The following was written while I living in Egypt: “Yesterday, while I was writing and listening to music, I felt the need to raise my arms up. This is usually when I am about to receive energies from ‘Upstairs’. One of the energies I brought down was a large communion wafer, like the one the Catholic priest places in his mouth during the mass ritual. I knew this meant I was about to pass on a larger amount of energy than usual and as my friend Chris (without whom the Gaia Method Earthways would never have happened) is coming to Luxor for a month, and will go through his sixth gateway initiation, I imagine it will be for him. So, again, the energies which you need will often be given in advance. All you have to do is be open to receive it.”

When you are about to do energywork, your guides place the necessary energies into your centre, your lower Tan Tien behind the nevel). It can feel as though you are an open cup which is being filled, and this feeling can be very physical, like there is something heavy in your belly. These energies are very real and, like the water energies of the ‘umbilical’, you will carry them until you have placed them where they need to be.

Once you have become the energies of the Grail, you are also then able to anchor that energy in the earth. While I was working in Winchester with Chris and Eartha, we had to join energy lines together – over a period of time. (We had received our ‘instructions and downloads’ at the Chalice Well in Glastonbury). Together these lines joined into an archetypal energyfield of fish, Chalice and crib, joined together to create the energies of male and female fertility.

In this image, the chalice is the two yellow lines which cross. Each point, and end of a line, joins to a sacred site. The fish encompasses the whole image representing the fertility of water.i.e. the river Itchen. (I will deal with the fish energy in another post). We didn’t know what was going to be the outcome, but we followed our directions, anchoring and walking a line until it became apparent that what we were doing was creating an archetypal energyfield in the landscape.

The entire energy is the Fish in the Chalice which leads to a divine Birthing (Crib) of energies in Winchester. I am aware that much of this work appears in Christian symbols, but these symbols are ageless and were incorporated into Christian religion because they are potent symbols of power and contain universal meaning. The fish is a symbol of the fertility that comes from the water. The cauldron, I believe, is the precurser to the grail/chalice, women traditionally being the keepers of the cauldron and sacred wells. The masculine principle joins with the feminine energies in the landscape to create the birth of new thinking, new ways of living which are more in tune with the land, and new life; a wondrous creation.

Although the Grail story itself originated in the Christian tradition, and with the Arthur stories, women, such as priestesses, have learned to hold these sacred energies. They have gotten to a point where they could hold the energy, in complete trust, without trying to control the placement of the energies they are given.

I remember the first time, I became aware of my guides filling my chalice with energies in preparation for a working. Chris and I were due to go to Farley Mount, Winchester, the following day. It was January 2009. We were sitting in our caravan when one of my Elder guides came in.

He planted a white flame, with blue, pink and yellow flames, as though it were one four-fold flame, in my lower tan Tien. I somehow knew it was for energy work we were about to do at Beacon Hill, a few miles away. Four lines went out from the flame and created an X. At the end of each line of this X was a white lotus, with the three colours, blue, pink and yellow on the petals. They felt like four places where the flowers would be ‘set’.

The energy moved in through the top of my head, and through my body, until it sat behind my navel. It was a very strange experience, as though I was an open pot. At that point I was not aware of how the energies worked or of the significance of the Chalice, but, the following day, I planted the energies and then I understood. When it happened next time, I was more prepared.

It seems to be a common occurrence, that before I am due to do any work, whether it be to pass an attunement or to work in the field, the energies are placed in my chalice. If I am given energies to hold and I am not passing an attunement then I know that within a short time I will have to do some work somewhere. The more you progress, the larger your energy-field becomes, and the more energies you can hold. Doing any other form of healing, or energyfield training, helps to expand the amount of energy you can channel and hold.

I wrote the above many years ago and have become used to these energies coming in. They still come in days before a significent working, but I have grown familiar with the feelings in my belly, so that they no longer feel so unusual. Unless, of course, it is going to be a big working needing a lot of energy.

In 2009 I also recorded a dream: I was in Duiske Abbey in Graiguenamanagh (where I grew up) but it was called the Old Minster (in Winchester). The church was not there initially, then it was. I raised my arms and brought down a large gold chalice and anchored it in the foundations. I kept forgetting my sandals and uncle Philip was standing there as one of the guardians.(In life, he was very connected to the abbey in Graiguenamanagh). He had this whole set-up of a beautiful clear-blue water beach. The water was pristine and sparkling and I wanted to go into it.

This dream was about the anchoring of the Divine Feminine energies in Winchester Cathedral, which we have been doing for nearly twenty years now, and clearing the water lines beneath Winchester itself. The spring is also beneath the high altar in the cathedral. Of course, many other people come to Winchester to do their energywork, adding to the layers of change and growth.

So not only are we the vessels, we also anchor the grail energies, the Divine Feminine, where it is needed. But always under guidance. Often we only know what to do once we get there.

Sometimes, during an attunement, another chalice will appear. This is often filled with blood, and you are asked to drink from it, or to offer it to someone else to drink. The blood in the chalice often represents an emotional sacrifice which will be painful. When you offered this chalice, you are being asked to go into a situation which will be emotionally challenging. A challenge to help someone else which will mean personal difficulty. This chalice is usually to do with a conscious self-sacrifice for the good of the whole. Drinking the cup means you have accepted the role you will play and the situation may mean having to sacrifice what you feel comfortable with, in exchange for a situation which is not. This is only offered because you are strong enough to do the work, and becasue there is persoanl healing involved too.

You do not have to accept this, but I usually do, even though I KNOW it is going to be difficult. I have learned, from experiecne, that it is a soul sacrifice and that both myself and the other person person involved will be in a MUCH better postion when all is done. The end result is often the best reward. Again, this idea of sacrifice of anaethma to our modern way of thinking, especially in the modern world of self-care, etc. But in the world of the Soul, certain agreed sacrifices offer you much growth. You might have to sacrifice money, freedom, joy, or whatever, for a time, but there is always much to be gained by acepting it. You go into a situation knowing what it will entail. You are not going in blindly. It is a choice.

If we are always thinking of ourselves and our own welbeing, and not considering the people around us, we become narrow, selfish, greedy and lacking in compassion. Sometimes, for the greater good, and for the healing of someone else, we need to put some of our needs on the back burner. But it is with concious awareness that we do it with intention and we always have the choice.