The Grail and the Blood sacrifice.

‘I think that at the supper I neither receive flesh nor blood, but bread and wine; which bread when it is broken, and the wine when it is drunken, put me in remembrance how that for my sins the body of Christ was broken, and his blood shed on the cross. …I ground my faith upon God’s word, and not upon the church… The faith of the church must be tried by God’s word, and not God’s word by the church; neither yet my faith.’ Jane Grey to John Feckenham, 1554 (Nine days Queen of England before Elizabeth I)

There is another aspect to the Grail work that I will talk about here:

holy-grail-blood-cupAs you progress further with your work as a Planetary healer the archetypes of the ‘grail which holds the blood’ becomes less of a symbol and more of a reality, although it is not the ‘blood of Christ’ which you hold in the vessel but the ‘blood’ of your own sacrifice.  Blood is your life force, it is what keeps you alive. When you are doing something in your life which means you have to sacrifice something precious it is like sacrificing your own blood. It is emotionally painful but necessary. It is also one of the hardest things to do.  My first experience of this came when I was in Lyme Regis with Chris doing my 7th Gateway Initiation. It was an emotionally difficult time:

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“While I was in Lyme Regis with Chris we stayed in Bridport.  While I was trying to fathom everything that I was feeling I had a vision. Quetzalcoatl appeared in front of me and he was holding a carved stone bowl of water in his hands. He held the water out for me to take and drink, so I did. When the bowl was empty he remained there. I then saw myself cutting my left wrist and allowing the blood to poor into the stone bowl. When it was full the Quetzalcoatl priest turned and walked up the steps of the Serpent Pyramid at Chichen Itza and offered it up to the Sun. He told me that in order to partake of the Waters of Life I needed to sacrifice some of myself in return. This felt like the sacrificing of my own emotions in order to gain the gifts.”tlahuicole5

I didn’t really understand what he meant, in hindsight, but I do now. Receiving these energies meant sacrifice on my part, sacrifice which would be experienced as challenging and painful and that has certainly proved to be the truth. Doing this work of bringing in the Gaia Method and doing the earth energy work has meant I have had to sacrifice much of what I wanted for my life. It also meant that I was sacrificing a ‘normal’ life. Although the gifts far outweigh the sacrifices they are nonetheless difficult!

There is a significant difference between the sacrifice of the wrist cut and the palm cut. The cutting of the wrists seems to be more of an emotional nature, like sacrificing your life for the greater work. This sacrifice is a gift to Humanity and signifies your readiness to work for the benefit of the whole.  Cutting the palm of either hand is about the sacrificing of your resources, your give and take. It is a sacrifice you make yourself. If you have a vision about a heart sacrifice then that symbolic gesture is obvious. Your relationship needs, on all levels, are sacrificed for the greater good. A most painful experience indeed. These sacrifices are only ‘offered’ once you have reached a certain point in your own healing and can accept guidance from your guides and soul without allowing your own Will to get in the way. That is not to say that they are easy, they are not, but you understand at this point, the necessity of it, and are willing to let go of your own Will in order to achieve the necessary goals. This allowing is not a form of co-dependence, spiritual or otherwise, although at times you do question that, but you are consciously choosing this path and are fully aware of its implications. It is also not martyrdom, although at times you will question that too, especially if you are raised within a religious culture where martyrdom is seen as somehow desirable. There are fine lines between delusion and spiritual reality here! Recognising your own emotional and behavioural patterns is indispensable.

On another occasion, while doing energywork at the sea in Southsea, on MOD land, I had the following vision:

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“I saw my left hand, but it was the hand of the Goddess Lakshmi and she was holding it out and up. In her palm was a golden lotus. A sword, like a scimitar, had its point in the centre of her palm and it rotated slightly into her flesh until drops of blood appeared. I thought this was a bit weird but I continued to watch. As the drops of blood came from her hand she allowed it to pour into the vortex, filling the area with her life-force. The entire area became red. Then I was Lakshmi, and I felt in my power as her, giving and yet powerful. I was aware of my/her energy filling this entire energy and bringing back the awareness of the Goddess into this male-dominated area of the land and sea. She was reclaiming her world and giving something back in return. I can’t help feeling that there is something about her own pain there as she has to be bled in order to give. ”

Now I understand what this was about. Lakshmi is the Goddess of Abundance and the scimitar is the Middle Eastern sword energy. It really was telling me about what I had to do here in Egypt. Coming here and helping financially has often felt like I was being ‘bled dry’ by the needs of the people around me. It has not been easy, especially as I have had to struggle so much myself in the process. It has been a sacrifice but it has allowed me to do a lot of energywork here, creating the network of energies which allows the Divine feminine to be anchored here again. The Goddess was sacrificing her own blood so she was choosing to do this for the good of the land and its people. At the time I received this vision I had no idea that I would be living here but it is certainly how things have worked out!

On another occasion, while receiving energy information about my husband, (19 may 2010):

“Last night I felt myself opening again. I raised my left hand high to bring something down and I saw both a flint dagger and a pink lotus being placed there. They seemed to be the same energy and initially I tried to separate them but I couldn’t so I had to let it be what it was. I then had to hold my right hand up and I brought the knife down and cut my right palm in a long cut. This felt a little freaky and I wasn’t sure if I hadn’t been reading too much of the Sookie Stackhouse books! Blood was flowing from my palm and then I saw Omar standing in front of me. He held the grail in his hands and I held my bleeding hand over it and allowed the cup to fill with my blood. When it stopped bleeding he brought the cup to his lips and drank it’s contents. He now had part of my essence in his body and was accepting my sacrifice.

Then I began to sprout branches from my body, like I was becoming a tree. Omar was still in front of me and I then said to him ‘Our fate is sealed, we are now One’. I was now standing beside him, on his right hand side and I had a long bow with arrows in my right hand. I was Artemis. He was now an Aztec warrior-priest and protector.”

Again this is exactly how things have worked out. I have sacrificed my own emotional needs for the past three years here and he has grown as a result. But this is the way it had to be if we were to work together as one unit. Aztec-priest-human-sacrifice-2

The blood sacrifice is usually an emotional one as sometimes the necessity of working for Humanity means that your own needs are left behind. But in the process you heal deep-seated issues and complete challenges which have proved difficult in previous lives. So nothing is wasted.

As with all of this work your guides ALWAYS offer this to you. You do have a choice. You are never put in a position where you have to sacrifice anything. It is always your choice. If you choose not to accept the voluntary sacrifice then there is no judgement. As always these ‘gifts’ are offered in Love. Usually it is an ‘inner’ decision rather than a rational one as the soul recognises the symbolic energy but the rational mind may not, until much later.

Sometimes it is during an attunement that the Quetzalcoatl priest will appear. During a Reiki 2 attunement with a Gaia method healer the priest stood in front of her:

“Then, just when we though it was finished the  priest was standing in front of her. He cut her wrists and then allowed the blood to pour into the bowl, with which he then walked up the pyramid, and offered it to the Gods”.

On another occasion, while doing another Reiki and Gaia Method attunement the priest appeared and asked the person if they wanted to accept their sacrificial path. She decided that she did not want to take this step. She was worried about having said no but another guide appeared and told her that there was no judgement  and that everyone’s life, and path, was their own to choose.

Although, what I do find interesting is that so far, it is only women who are called upon to make this sacrifice! I haven’t had any experience of the sacrifice with the men who have received the attunements. Perhaps it is because women are embodying the Goddess and men have to learn to serve her once again. But maybe in the future that will change. I  will have to wait and see.

It is easy though, to see how all of these sacrificial energies became misunderstood in the past,  and where they all became physical sacrifices over time. They had the right idea but had lost their reverence for life and the understanding of the sacrifice.

The Chalice/Grail.

HolygrailAs with the Sword again we are dealing with Arthurian myth, and also ancient symbols. As is usual with these energies they have many functions but the prime energetic function of the chalice is as a vessel! It is not an attunement energy but something that you ‘become’ as you continue to clear out your own personal issues and devote yourself to service of the Planet and its healing. You literally become the vessel of Divine energies. This means that you are an open channel and have agreed with your guides and Elders to be the receptacle of energies which then can be placed or used in the environment in order to bring balance and healing.

Sometimes, when I am passing an attunement I am holding a chalice and giving a communion wafer to someone. This is usually because I am going to be giving a specific energy to someone. The communion wafer is the energy of the Mother. It is her ‘bread’, the bread of life which sustains us and is given as a gift from her chalice, her vessel. The ‘communion bread’ is her substance but it has also been charged with the Divine Masculine Solar energies and so it brings more abundance with it.

Yesterday, while I was writing and listening to music I felt the need to raise my arms up. This is usually when I am about to receive energies from ‘upstairs’. One of the energies I brought down was a large communion wafer, like the one the Catholic priest eats in a mass. This means that I am about to pass on a larger amount of energy than usual  and as my friend Chris (without whom the Gaia Method would probably never have happened) is coming to Luxor for a month, and will go through  his sixth gateway initiation, I imagine it will be for him! So. again, the energies which you will need will often be given in advance. All you have to do is be open to receive!

When you are about to do some energywork your guides place the necessary energies into your centre. You literally feel like you are an open cup which is being filled and this feeling can be very physical. It can feel like you have something heavy in your belly. These energies are very real and, like the water energies of the ‘umbilical’, you will carry them until you have placed them where they need to be.  winchfishchalice2

Once you have become the energies of the Grail you are also then able to anchor that energy in the earth. While I was working in Winchester with Chris and Eartha we had to join energy lines together, over a period of time; having received our ‘instructions and downloads’ at the Chalice Well in Glastonbury. Together these lines joined into an archetypal energyfield of fish, Chalice and crib, joined together to create the energies of male and female fertility. In the image the chalice is the two yellow lines which cross. Each point, and end of a line, joins to a sacred site. The fish encompasses the whole image; it represents the fertility of water.i.e. the river Itchen. (I will deal with the fish energy in another post). We didn’t know that that was going to be the outcome, we just followed our directions, anchoring and walking a line until it became apparent that what we were doing was creating an archetypal energyfield in the landscape.

The entire energy is the Fish in the Chalice which leads to a divine Birthing (Crib) of energies in Winchester. I am aware that much of this work appears in Christian symbols but these symbols are ageless and were incorporated into Christian religion because they are potent symbols of power and contain universal meaning. But these energies are connected to nature. The fertility of the water, the masculine principle joining with the feminine energies in the landscape combine to create the birth of new thinking, new ways of living which are more in tune with the land, and new life, a wondrous creation.

I remember the first time I became aware of how my guides fill my ‘chalice’ with energies in preparation for a working. Chris and I were due to go to Farley Mount the following day. It was January 2009. We were sitting in the caravan when  one of my Elder guides came in:

Sangreal“Yesterday I had one of the Elders, Antaris, come in and he planted a white flame with blue, pink and yellow flames as though it were one four-fold flame, in my centre. It felt like it was for the work at Beacon Hill. Then four lines went out from the flame and created an X at the tip of each was a white lotus with the three colours on the petals. They felt like four places where the flowers would be ‘set’.”

I could feel the energy moving in through the top of my head and through my body until it ‘sat’ behind my navel. It was a very strange experience as though I was an open pot. At that point I was not aware of how the energies worked or of what was the significance of the Chalice. But, the following day I planted the energies and then I understood, so that when it happened the next time I was more prepared.

Now it seems to be a common occurrence that before I am due to do any work, whether it be to pass an attunement or to work ‘in the field’, the energies are placed in my chalice. If I am given energies to hold and I am not passing an attunement then I know that within a short time I will have to do some work somewhere.

The more you progress the larger your energy-field becomes and so the more energies you can ‘contain’. Doing any other form of healing or energyfield training helps to expand the amount of energy you can hold and channel. Two of the most useful trainings I have done in this regard were Flower of Life and Merkaba training, plus Magnified Healing. The more healing modalities you can add to your ‘toolbox’, the better you become at channelling what is required, and the more able you become at ‘holding energies in your ‘Chalice’.