This is a portal Initiation created with a crystal grid. I was awoken during the night and told to create it – awoken numerous times, in fact. They obviously did not want me to forget it, as I did forget the other one they suggested! But, I’m sure it will come back – at some future point. It is a meditation which can be done as often as you feel the impulse, and each time you listen, and follow the journey, the gifts you receive will be different.
Although I had my own plans about what to create and post, it would appear that ‘Upstairs’ had different ideas.
So here is a gift from my guides to you. May it serve you well. Enjoy.
Since my Solstice visit to Stonehenge, when I received an energy upgrade, the way I do readings has changed. I now use a crystal grid with geometric patterns and essences. I did not know that I was going to be doing readings this way until I did one for a client and my guides told me to create a simple layout using crystals and candles. It had been a long time, nearly twenty years, since my guides instructed me to throw my just purchased and expensive elestial crystal into the sea at my seventh gateway initiation. At the time, they told me I no longer needed ‘tools’, so I sold all my crystals, trusting my guides completely.
Now, they were telling me to create a crystal grid. Did I have any crystals? I searched the house and found some that other people had gifted me, along with some stones I had tumbled myself from different parts of Ireland. The resulting reading was different and deeper than any I had done before. And I discovered that recording it as I went was also more powerful for the listener because it allowed them to connect with the energies directly rather than simply through the written word. The energies of the reading now move into the consciousness and energy field of the listener. However, I still do a write-up if certain clarifications are necessary.
The great thing about this process, apart from the fact that I LOVE doing them this way, is that I can also open them up to reading the soul purpose of relationships, children, as well as the usual Soul/Life/Healing ones. There really seems to be no limit, so far, as to what I can read.
An important thing to remember, however, is that the readings are coming from a Soul perspective. It will be an overview of development challenges, opportunities for growth, soul purpose, etc. What they will not do is tell you what to do. They won’t tell you that your relationship will last, or not, because you are the one learning the lessons. You have been given free-will for a reason. It is part of your challenge here on earth to use your free will to make choices, so the readings will show you what opportunities there are for growth, what you may have chosen to learn, and what might help you in that learning. They act as a reminder of why you came and what you hoped to learn/overcome/develop.
The Process of Doing a Crystal Grid Session.
Once I have received your photo, and the person you are in relationship with, your home or animal friend, I ask your guide’s permission to receive the information. Sometimes I am given this information by going to the library and sometimes I am given specific information in a dream, or just as I am waking up.
When I am ready to do the reading, or the healing, I set up a crystal grid, intuitively choosing the crystals. I use candles and crystals in the readings, placing them in the pattern I am shown by my guides. There is a connection between the energy of the stones and the energy of the flames which feels ancient to me. It brings me to a place of stone circles and fire ceremonies. The stones become the holder/container of the energy coming in, just as the Stone circles hold and contain energy. The candles I use are also held in stone.
As well as the flames and crystals, I use essences. These are either my own, or from the Aura Soma range. The essences are intuitively chosen when I am doing a healing grid, as they add layers of necessary vibration. The patterns in the grid are based on sacred geometry because these shapes have an energetic frequency that your soul recognises. Crystals are made of geometric shapes so this makes sense to me. The grids are holding patterns that contain and hold the energetic information of your Soul. The crystals act as transmitters of energy just as they were used to transmit radio waves in radios and in watches and are still part of computers everywhere. Crystals also act as harmonisers, modifying the effects of today’s digital world and when used in a grid, together they act to balance the mental information with the energy field. This is what my guides say about crystals:
Crystals are encoded with the energy of creation and are therefore used in many ways in a healing. They are transmitters, modifiers, harmonisers, and balancers. They regulate the crystalline energy of Human consciousness especially when the recipient is aligned with the earth’s purpose and Being. They allow a certain vibration or information frequency to be transmitted through the air waves to the recipient and because they are formed as the earth has formed, over millions of years, they hold the energetic memory of earth creation and therefore are perfect transmitters of frequency. You are all made of the earth and so the crystals help you to anchor your higher awareness into the physical body, keeping you fully anchored in space and time, just as the stone circles do now.
Once everything is in place, I tune in and allow the necessary information and healing to come through. I record what I see, and feel, adding background music so you can use the recording as a meditation. This helps to fully anchor the energies received. If there are energies that need describing, I will create the images and write up what they mean, so you can use them consciously.
One of the things that can come in when having a soul/past-life reading is information about which of the Seven Rays you have incarnated on. I will give you basic information on your Ray which will help you understand both your role on Earth and the energies that move through you.
Once I have finished a reading or healing, I allow the energy to continue flowing, not clearing away the grid for a couple of hours until the energies have gradually stopped transmitting. Sometimes I am told to use sea shells, or other natural objects which bring in the energy of that object. Seashell usually indicate a need to connect to the sea energies. I have a basket on my windowsill of objects I have picked up, such as feathers, rocks, shells, seaweed, bits of driftwood, etc. and these are often utilised in the readings. The process reminds me of how shamans do readings with magical objects, which I find fascinating. But this is how the ancestors have done this work for thousands of years, so it feels good to be doing it again.
During the readings, I may also channel specific guidance from your guides, and add healing energies to the grid to help you gain clarity or overcome difficulties. These energies are from both the earth and the cosmos, depending on what you need, but I will explain any energies so you can consciously connect to what you receive. Sometimes too, I am guided to use sound, via tuning forks, to activate and move certain energies that need a more resonant sound vibration to break up energy which might be preventing forward movement.
These readings are a wonderful way to connect to the wisdom of your Soul and Guides and I absolutely love doing them. I look forward to meeting, and connecting, to your Soul essence.
I began writing this post in December 2023, before I went to Stonehenge for the Solstice. Seeing the image of the Stonehenge Cup online must have triggered something in me because a week later I had a strong impulse to go and visit Salisbury Plain. The excitement of finding the story behind this object opened a way forward. Often this is how we are led towards a place we need to work in. Something triggers an energy deep inside and we are propelled by a sense of exploration and adventure towards discovering a new piece of the puzzle.
This particular part of the puzzle is still playing out for me, and may well last the entire year, maybe longer. We’ll see. Here is the object that triggered my excitement and the post I had begun to write about it…
While doing some work online, I came across an image that made my heart flutter. It was an image that told me something about Stonehenge that I probably would not have accepted before, but because this information came from the burial of a woman in a round barrow close to Stonehenge, and within its sacred boundaries, it was impossible not to accept. Not only could I not not accept it, it opened my eyes to what I had been unable to see before, and which explained an aspect of the rituals in Stonehenge that made absolute sense to me.
The cup is not a cup, as such, but a replica of the stone circle itself … complete with a thatched roof and a large opening in the centre. Stonehenge must have looked like this at some point in its long life and light, part of its ritual use. When a light is placed inside the model, it shines out through the gaps … when lit in the dark. Effectively, it is like the solar light shining out through the stones. It made me wonder whether there was any evidence of fires having been burned in the centre of the circle or purely energetic.
During sacred solar ceremonies, the sun’s light is energetically ‘brought down’ into the centre to fertilise the waiting womb beneath the earth. I know this is part of Stonehenge’s function because it is one of the things I recognised early on in my work when I did Reiki attunements in the circle. My later experiences at Broomrigg stone circle in Cumbria also taught me what the sacred ceremonies in the circles were really about and inspired me as to why and how Stone circles may have been created.
The opening at the roof of this thatched building is like the cervix, the entrance to the womb, opening to the fertilising energies of the sun during the Winter Solstice and on into February. Stonehenge, like many sites, is a Sheelagh na Gig site, a Winter/Crone site that opens to the masculine solar light when it becomes the maiden of Spring. Priests and priestesses, channels for this light, would bring the sun’s energy through their bodies and energy fields, allowing solar energy to pass into the waiting, receptive earth beneath their feet.
The light of larger sites, such as the Stonehenge Complex, travelled along energy lines connected to the henge. Other places, such as menhirs, smaller circles and especially rivers, then sent that energy further into the landscape benefitting all who lived upon it. Light is life. Our ancestors understood the earth to be the body of the Mother. She fed them; nurtured them; gave them shelter, and in death, they returned to her.
I can just imagine what it might have been like to participate in one of their rituals. Standing under the cover of the thatched roof, waiting expectantly for the sun to shine its rays of light, both physical and energetic, into the womb of the waiting mother. Everyone is watching. They can feel the energies radiate, touching them all, making their skin tingle, their bodies fill with light. A sense of elation as energy leads to lightheadedness. Awe as the sun’s rays move into the landscape – their landscape – fills them with joyful, and trusting, anticipation of the abundance that will follow. The unshakable knowledge that they are loved and supported by both Mother Earth and Father Sun, gives them assurance that all will be well. It is a joyful, uplifting and connecting celebration as all the tribes gather to participate in the yearly ritual of abundance and sharing.
We get some sense of this wonder and attunement at modern gatherings at the Solstice. But in the past, they knew what they were doing. They knew this ritual of bringing down the light would benefit everyone. What we see now is a good start, however. People are feeling the old energies again. Wanting to join together in the ancient ritual of tribal celebration. There is a powerful sense of connection in these gatherings as people from everywhere come on this night to be together, each understanding why the other is there. There is something magical about the atmosphere. We are All One, together, honouring and loving the ancient place, taking in the special energies of the time.
The discovery of the miniature ceramic Stonehenge Cup made me wonder who the buried woman was. Burial mounds contain the bodies, or ashes, of significant people who both ruled, and carried out sacred service. Their energies remain at these sites and can be accessed with intention and a willingness to serve the whole. She may have been a priestess, a ‘Mother’ connected to the sacred landscape. In life, she may have had a replica Stonehenge to burn incense in, possibly to maintain her intention for the henge and to hold the sacred site within her energy-field. It is much the same as having an altar space in your home, lighting candles and incense and connecting to the energy of a place, or people. It might have been a loved object , connecting her to the place she loved, the place of the Mother. And, of course, it may not be the only one, simply the only one they have found, so far.
On the other hand, the incense cup could have been buried with her to allow her to take the light of Stonehenge into the earth, back to the Mother, a little part of the light she might have worked with most of her life. It reminds me of my aunt’s funeral in southern Ireland. She was a very devoted Catholic. After the traditional wake, which was wonderful to attend because her spirit was joyful that she was ‘still alive’, we went to the funeral mass. Afterwards, her coffin was brought to the cemetery in Kilmacow, beside St Senan’s Church, where it was put in the ground, on top of my great-grandmother Johanna’s coffin; her favourite grandmother. (My mother was one of the models used for an angel mural in the Church of St Senan, when she was a child. She is the third angel from the right, lower three, playing a trumpet).
When my aunt’s coffin was in the ground, I saw a vertical shaft of pink light enter her heart area, through the wood of the coffin. It remained anchored there, a pillar of pink energy, as though her physical body was its anchor. The pink was the ray of Love and would be henceforth accessible to all who visited the graveyard. A lovely gift to leave after physical life. I have seen the same thing with ancient burial sites too.
Our ancestors held different beliefs, but energy is energy, and they knew it far better than we do. We are only learning what they knew, thanks to their physical remains and ability to communicate with us, thousands of years later. Their bodies, within the burial mounds, can still share energy and information, if we remain open. I have learned to understand the ancient rituals through connecting with the spirit of these people who are happy to share their history and knowledge. They want us to know how to venerate the earth and its many dimensions. They want us to remember. And we can, by going to their places, tuning in, and trusting what they give us.
Recently, a friend and I went to Winchester Cathedral, called as we were, to go. When we went inside, we went to the little votive candle-stand to one side of the main aisle. I had a strong feeling we needed to light a candle but when we were lighting our flames it felt like the physical version of an energetic flame we needed to light – in front of the great altar.
Before the Great Altar.
Beneath the great altar, there is an ancient well, but I was asked to plant a large blue flame, the heart of the mother, some distance away on the lower level. My friend and I sat on the pews on opposite sides, facing each other with the space between us. This flame was connected to the situation in Israel/Palestine and was an energy to help support the people there. It would bring succour to all the people suffering and thoughts of peace to the people in authority. (Personally, I had my doubts that the latter could be so influenced, but who was I to judge the efficacy of these spiritual intentions?). Nevertheless, I spent some time focusing this blue flame light on the conflict, and remembered that one of the four biggest chakra points on earth was in Jerusalem. This energy-point is a hotbed of ideas and beliefs and a place where new beliefs are birthed. This is why there has always been conflict in this area.
Over twenty years ago, my guides gave me a vision that they told me to record. This vision showed war in Israel and the golden dome of the Al-Aqsah mosque crumbling as a bright new blue-white minaret of divine feminine awareness arose from the centre, like a plant shoot grrrrrrrowing into the sky. This site, now sacred to Islam, was once also sacred to the Christians, and the Jews. They identified the Dome of the Rock with the Temple of Solomon, which I believe was an energetic temple, not a physical one.
When I see what is happening there now, my heart breaks for the people and the incredible pain they are experiencing. But I also recognise the spiritual opportunity for others around the world to develop compassion, to open their hearts and to feel the desire to help all who are suffering. The opportunity is to move beyond the personal, and to see the universal, to recognise that we are all ONE. It is only our beliefs and fears which separate us. The challenge is to open ourselves to healing the collective pain and to see with the eyes of Divinity. To recognise how our beliefs decide whose side we take, and why. To heal the rifts inside ourselves so we can see everyone as a seed of the Divine. To use our skills as healers to send light to ALL involved, especially to those who perpetrate these hatreds and who keep such a sense of victimhood in their thoughts and hearts to the point where they no longer see the humanity in front of them and instead see only animals. Those are the ones who need the light most, the ones in charge- because they have less light. As my guides once told me ‘When there is hate in your heart, there is no room for love.’ So healing the hate, and the causes of it, makes room. (It is important to remember, when anchoring these flames, that we do not think as the personality does, but as the Soul, who sees from a higher perspective).
So, with the Flame of the Heart of the Mother anchored in our wonderful Cathedral, a place with a wide river of blue light running beneath it that connects to many other sacred places, we had done what was needed. This flame would influence the waters beneath the cathedral, the waters of the Itchen, and would travel wherever the river travelled towards the sea where a huge white flame had been anchored years ago in Southampton waters.
Once we had anchored this Divine Feminine healing light, we were instructed to stand before the altar. From the ancient spring below there floated up a feminine energy, the guardian of the well. She hovered above the floor in front of the altar, facing us. Wearing a pale green hooded cloak, the colour of a green pool in the forest, she held in her hands a gold-lidded container from which she took a sweet. I was handed a lemon sherbet, and my friend, a chocolate-covered Turkish delight; the pink within representing love. I wasn’t sure what the lemon sweet I was given represented but as it was bitter-sweet, I assumed whatever it was would not be particularly easy-going. But she also pressed a single gold coin into my palm, taking some of the bitterness away. Before we went behind the altar, to continue, she suggested that the blue flame would transform into the yellow Flame of Brigit in Spring.
Behind the great altar, we took our intuited positions, not knowing what we would do there. But as we did, we became aware of the masculine energy which formed the foundations of this cathedral and the religious beliefs that went with it. Everything was about male domination, male supremacy, male control. The structure of the building itself was infused with this energy, especially where we stood. At one point this was where the tomb of St Swithin and the bones of the Kings of England were once kept, moved there by our old friend Henry du Blois from their previous position in the Old Minster.
We stood at the site of St. Swithin’s tomb and tuned in, becoming aware that we were still physically surrounded on all sides by male effigies; the tombs of wealthy bishops, saints, etc. It was as if they were the solid foundations of the building itself, holding the very male ideas around God, power and control in place. I received the thought that the white flame needed to be anchored here, right in the centre of these male figureheads. But it had to be done from the lady chapel behind where we stood, where the feminine energy was anchored.
We stood in the doorway of the lady chapel on slabs of fossil-filled limestone. I was very aware that we were standing on a very ancient sea energy. This was significant too, for where this fossil-rich limestone had first been laid down was once the floor of a warm shallow sea and these waters are often experienced as the domain of the Divine Feminine Womb of Creation.
From our position in the doorway, itself an initiatic gateway, we saw a huge white flame anchor in the space between the tombs that surrounded it. It grew steadily larger and brighter. I was aware that there were two levels to this energy: one, the older level, which was once the ground level, and the other the higher level on which we now stood. Because the white flame is a higher frequency than the other flames they are often anchored on a higher level. Years ago, my friend Eartha and I were in Corfe Castle in Dorset. There, on a higher floor where, once, the chapel was situated, we anchored a smaller white flame. I knew then that it was significantly higher and was not to be anchored on the level we were on: the lower level. We anchored the flame standing on the remaining few steps which once allowed access to the upstairs chapel.
Here, in Winchester Cathedral, the White flame was a higher feminine vibration and was anchored to transform the control exerted by the patriarchy over sacred/religious places. This also felt very connected to the situation in Israel/Palestine, as if everything would slowly disintegrate and a new feminine awareness would become more apparent. There was a sense that there was no need for the present patriarchal institutions to be destroyed; that was not the feminine way. Instead, the negative structures of the patriarchy could be transmuted, transformed, healed, and the new, higher vibrational energy of the Divine Feminine would change the effect of male anger and their need for complete control. As a result, they would need to give in a little and see with the heart.
When this felt complete, and we could see the flame reaching the vaulted ceiling, I felt the white flame anchor in my base chakra. It burst into flame all the way up my spine, but it was not in my body, like my chakras are, but half in and half outside, flaming up my back. My base chakra was hot and I wondered what effect this flame would have on my life. I did not have to wait long to see just how powerful it was. The flame travelled up my back, getting larger as it went, burning through all my chakras until it emerged at the back of my head where it was contained by a gold crown. (Both my friend and I had this experience She has been doing the Gaia method Earthways for over twenty years). The gold crown contains the flame so that it burns within a limit and not wildly. The gold anchors it at that frequency. I have anchored flames like this in Castlerigg Stone Circle, and in Southampton waters at the meeting of the two rivers, and their influence affects a large area. There have been times when the extent of the energy from Southampton waters could be felt in Winchester.
Once we felt that the energies were complete, we walked back over to to the flame and I found myself adding the barest touch of blue, magenta and gold energy, which gave the vaguest hue to the white flame. These three additional colours are the three rays of Love, Wisdom and Power. (Thanks N for the reminder). Through the cleansing fire of the Divine Feminine, these three ray energies are added to the healing power of the flame.
I had a feeling that this personal anchoring of the flames in my body was going to be a big transmutation, but I had no idea how big until the following week when I went through an emotional clearing like never before. Secrets and lies in my family of origin were painfully exposed and old abuses were finally spoken, especially issues around the men in my family. It was an extremely painful week as injustice, which had been a large part of my life, was brought to light, and I held nothing back. There was a huge need to speak the hidden truths and to stand up for who I was, for the me that was not what others believed me to be. The releasing of these secrets, and they were not mine but those of others, but which once had a massive effect on my life and the lives of my children, was like a black tree whose darkened roots were being torn from different parts of my body. I was very much aware of a past life dynamic that was also being healed so there were multiple levels to deal with. I imagine that as the flame travelled through the chakras they were healing anything that was not Divine Feminine Love.
As a result, I have had a first-hand experience of the power of this Flame and understand how it might change things in the collective unconscious. Things might get a bit chaotic as these energies are released but if we remember that all is in Divine order, then all will be well.
The day after visiting Barton Stacey church, I drove along to Bullington. However, the church there was closed so I couldn’t get in to do what I was sure needed to be done. I thought I had gotten it wrong. Perhaps this little church, part of an old farming community and built by the lord of the manor for his family’s private worship back in the 1300s, was not part of the Magdalene network. So, I took some photos and drove to my father’s house, which was a five-minute drive away, and then forgot all about it.
The following day, I drove my father to Sutton Scotney to see his doctor but as I drove I saw the road as if it was a blue serpent, winding its way through the countryside, and I was following it. I wondered how far we were from the river Dever and googled it at the surgery. As it turned out, Bullington church was only a short distance away from the river which meandered, serpent-like behind it.
Later that evening, the local parish magazine was delivered to the house and as I flicked through it, I noticed that the church would be open for matins the following Sunday morning. OK, I would have to attend a service, but that was alright. Perhaps that would be important; maybe the other people’s energy might contribute to whatever was being anchored.
The Twelve Apostle Trees.
Once again, on the Sunday drive through Sparsholt, I felt the energy of the MF in St. Stephen’s church while I was driving through Crab Wood. I filled up with this energy and as I came near St Catherine’s, in Littleton, I sent out what looked like a gold fishing line from my tan Tien that connected to the work I had done there. As I drove on to Bullington, I brought both these energies with me.
It was a lovely sunny day and I got to the church with five minutes to spare. I was surprised that I wasn’t feeling nervous going into a place I was unfamiliar with and meeting people I didn’t know, especially a group of people who were already established in their community relationships. As an unknown, I would stick out like a sore thumb, which is not a position I feel comfortable in. Normally, I am quite self-conscious and situations like this can trigger feelings of anxiety. However, I didn’t feel remotely fazed. I said hello to the ten people there, took my seat, and the woman next to me, who was the churchwarden, gave me the prayer book open to the right page.
The churchgoers were warm and inviting and the church felt very cosy. I didn’t know what to expect, or what to do, but followed what everyone else was doing. When it came to the readings, I tuned in and anchored the energies. The main energy was the anchoring of the Magdalene Flame which was placed on the altar. The magenta tube then descended over it, as it did in the other churches. When these both were fully in place, rose petals gently descended, each one representing the love of the Mother. Once again, the palm tree appeared and the flame was anchored through the use of the Was-sceptre. The same as in Chandler’s Ford.
Was-Sceptre Anchoring.
This entire anchoring was carried out while the service was going on; each part happening with small time gaps in between. This is a layering of energies, which takes place over a physical period of time, in a sequence.
After the petals had begun to fall there was a short pause and I saw my Ka-self (that Higher-Self part of me that does this work) standing at the altar again, placing the chalice of wafers I had received from MM at Barton Stacey, on the altar cloth, within the magenta tube of energy. A little while later, a chalice of wine was raised, in the tube, to be blessed by the Mother, her rose petals filling the chalice to combine with the wine. In the past, bread was charged over vortices in the earth, now they could be charged through the Magenta Mother channel, her love connection between ‘heaven and earth’. The bread, once charged in this way, would be shared with the congregation during communion, as would the rose-petal, love-filled wine.
Bullington Church
The bread and wine I had received at Barton Stacey church had been for Bullington church. So when MM had said ‘This is my church’, was she talking about Bullington, or all the churches connected with her energy, a community of holy places? I’m still not sure.
The service went on and I thought that the work was finished, but the right side of my face began to feel hot, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw a Brigit Flame burning in the aisle, opposite the entrance. This flame felt very different to the higher vibrational MF at the altar. It was much more physical than that, another frequency entirely. I focussed my attention on this flame to see what was needed. Slowly, as I kept it in my vision, it grew to about six feet high. A gold band was then placed around the top of the flame, as had happened in Crawley Church, but this band was the regular gold band, holding the energy at a particular frequency. As I watched, I saw the band being adjusted, and then it transformed into a large, spoked wagon wheel, with a hub in the centre of the flame. The wheel expanded until it spread out, connecting to other places.
I have worked with energetic wagon wheels before, especially while anchoring energy in Egypt. It seems to connect different communities, or people together, the spokes representing the places to be connected. I had a feeling that these spokes were people, people who had a common cause, or belief, and who were held by this flame energy. This became clearer at the end of the service.
Aspergillums
Next, I saw a priest bless the flame with holy water, casting little drops of it with an aspergillum (great word!), much the same as in Crawley church where the flame was blessed with incense. Although why one flame was sanctified with fire and the other with water, I have no idea. In Roman sacrificial rites, a laurel twig was used to sprinkle holy water but this was later replaced by the aspergillum. An aspergillum is used in Roman Catholic and Anglican ceremonies, including Baptism and during Easter. A priest will use the aspergillum to bless the candles, during candlemas, and the palms during Palm Sunday Mass. The name derives from the Latin verb aspergere ‘to sprinkle’. The Easter season was just about to start, so perhaps this was why the flame was being blessed. Palm Sunday was only around the corner. It would also explain the palm tree in both Chandlers Ford and here. The ceremonies carried out over Easter might have something to do with it.
At the end of the service, I stood and chatted with four of the congregation: The minister and his wife, the church-warden and another man. The rest had left. We stood around the flame, although they didn’t know it. It felt like they were the spokes of the wagon wheel because they do the rounds of all the churches I had been working on. There are not enough people in each village now for weekly services. I was particularly happy with the Minister (or Rev, or something). A lovely, connected man with a strong spiritual core, he had given a talk about mysticism, and Julian of Norwich, which struck me as very interesting, and he considered himself to be a mystic. He also explained an experience I had had during the service. We were going through the book of prayers they use and at one point I felt the energy of an Egyptian temple. The congregation then began to recite the Catholic creed. These were Anglicans; why were they reciting a Catholic prayer? This completely confused me but it also explained why I was picking up Egyptian energies. Catholic rituals go right back to Egyptian temple worship. But why was this happening in an Anglican church?
As it turned out, they are an Anglican-Catholic group, which seems to be a thing now. But it also makes sense to me, because the roots of Catholicism are in Egypt. But it was very interesting to be picking up these energies during the service and to see how Egyptian energies are still such a part of modern worship, and how that root is getting stronger again. Hopefully, though, it would not become the controlling dogma the Romans created.
Pink circles are MF and Orange circles are BF
When I was writing this up, I was reminded of the Bull image I had briefly seen in St Catherine’s Church in Littleton. They were saying ‘Bull-ington’, but I didn’t understand it at the time. It felt like I had come full circle, from the anchoring at Chandler’s Ford to Bullington. The above image shows the flames and their connections. Only one of those churches, St Mary the Lesser in Chilbolton, had an energy attached, but didn’t seem to be a major part of the circuit; the same as Crawly Church didn’t feel connected to the main circuit.
St Mary the Lesser would be the last church to be done in February, which I will post next time.
I have driven through the village of Sparsholt many times on the way to my father’s house in Barton Stacey, but never thought to stop there. Mainly because I am under time constraints. But I began to enjoy driving the little roads that connected old villages. It gives me some valuable alone-time and also I can feel the movement of the people of the past as they walked these roads, or travelled on horseback or carts or later in motorcars. I can imagine them visiting relatives in the other villages and going to church on Sunday, going to the market to sell their wares or to buy what they cannot get at home, or even for a change of scenery if they have the time to spare. My father thinks I am mad. He believes in getting someplace as quickly as possible and does not understand why I would want to take a longer route. I tried to explain but don’t think he was convinced.
The little roads between villages, created by the inhabitants of small hamlets, which were often part of old manors or estates, are like veins; a network joining the villages together; an entire template in time. This template is important when working on energetic layers. It is like a layer in photoshop, a layer that can be blended with other layers but which you can work with on an individual level. The layer I was working on was the connection between village churches. Still, when I started this, last week in St. Edward the Confessor’s Catholic church in Chandler’s Ford, I didn’t know that the journeys I had been making through Winchester’s outlying villages over the past few weeks would prove to be so important.
St Stephen’s
St. Stephen’s church is a small village church perched high above the village that surrounds it. It started life as a possible ‘pagan’ site on which the Saxons built their own place of worship; a common practice at the time. Whether by design, or intuition, energy attracts. In the distant past new cultures came into England and they brought their religious beliefs with them. Their beliefs might have been very similar to the beliefs of the people who already lived there and the new people would have settled, married into already established families and communities, and little by little religious culture would have changed. Special sites, which may no longer have been used, would have been the obvious energetic site to build a religious building on. Whether it was a known site or not it would still act as a magnet, drawing people to it. Religions might change, but those changes do not happen overnight. It takes time for them to shift and there has to have been an opening for them in the first place, a vacuum that needed to be filled; a Soul-need for change. St Stephen’s Church might originally have been one of these sites.
Old Yew Tree
I walked through the little graveyard and into the church, which is obviously loved and well-taken care of. However, inside, the flint building was very cold, and I wondered how the original church-goers warmed it. It had been a Catholic church once upon a time before Henry VIII created the Church of England, so perhaps sitting on cold hard seats in a freezing church in winter was a form of penance or self-sacrifice. But maybe they didn’t feel the cold quite like we do. But, on the plus side, it was filled with flowers and smelled divine.
Ornate Altar
I walked up to the altar and stood in front of it, tuning in. Immediately the Magenta Flame appeared, part of the flame I had been given in St Edward’s. But I also saw the Jewish Menorah with all its candles lit. It appeared as though it was sitting on the altar. At first, I dismissed it. After all, why should a Jewish ritual object be present energetically in this little village church in the middle of the English countryside? But I discovered, when I googled it, that St. Stephen was born in Jerusalem and was the first Christian martyr stoned to death by Jewish elders for blasphemy. Again, the Jerusalem link; the same as last week in St. Edward the Confessor’s church. The symbols associated with Stephen are the censor; three stones; a Martyr’s Palm frond and a crown. These symbols were to be important later on, especially when I worked in St Mary’s Church in the village of Crawley. It was as if the energies of one place connected with, and were anchored in, the other churches; themselves acting as connectors of archetypal energies.
St Stephen
The next part of the anchoring was to blow energy towards the Flame of the Magdalene which is a striking magenta in colour. This blowing expands the energy or directs it. When you blow out it is done with an energetic intention; an intention that the part of you doing the work understands the purpose of. When you are doing this kind of work, you, as a personality, have little control over the process. Your Soul-self is the active Self.
As a result of blowing breath towards the flame, it grew and expanded, reaching the wooden-beamed ceiling. I heard the words “In Perpetuam”, which means ‘For all of Eternity’. This reminded me of the Perpetual flame of St. Brigit in Kildare, Ireland, a flame dedicated to the pagan saint and kept burning by a group of nuns dedicated to St. Brigit and kept alight for the past thirty years. The flame they tend is to send out the solar light of Brigit, the light of Justice, Hope and Peace.
The Brigit Flame
So what did the anchoring of the Magdalene flame mean here? Mary Magdalene was one of Jesus’s disciples, and her flame-energy, originally channelled by a lovely Canadian man named Jhadten Jewell who played a really important part in my own energetic development, is the flame that helps balance, and heal, the wounded male. Her flame assists in the anchoring of the New Adamic energies, the New Male consciousness.
This is what he says: I have come to understand the power of the Goddess in Her great Return, in healing the wounded male energies of the planet that have resulted from the imbalance (i.e. predominance of the male energies that we can still see working today) of male and female energies. This is the return to balance, wholeness and unity. In my work, I have explored so many avenues of this and know that to be centered in the Goddess Light is the beginning of all creation. No matter how masculine a Soul may be, it is still and always one half feminine, in order for the alchemy of creation to unfold through all of us. We know that we have one half of our father’s DNA and half of our mother’s and yet the illusion of the physical gender, as important as it may be, lets us forget, again and again, the need for balance in these energies.
So why was the flame being anchored in these village churches? I know the answer might never come, but my Higher Self knows exactly why it is placed here and how it will affect the people who came here and who live in the area. All I can do is watch and facilitate.
The Magdalene Flame
Much of this work is carried out this way. I am under instruction, working in a dimension of consciousness which my personality self does not understand. Although I do get to watch, and enjoy, the higher Archetypal energies that exist in those higher dimensions, my Higher Self, or KA as they call it in ancient Egypt, is the one doing the real work. My body is simply the vehicle and the taxi service, driving from place to place and being a channel, or medium, for these energies to come through.
My next stop is in the church of St Catherine in Littleton. Another surprise visit and not so very far away.
(This post was written on a mobile keyboard. It makes it possible to write on the go with my phone. It is a genius contraption suggested by Chris Bishop, who I usually work with. Thanks Chris. A brilliant idea!)
I’ve been working with small churches for the past two weeks, connecting them with the Spring Brigit flame and the Magdalene flame energy.
Catholic Church of St Edward the Confessor.
The first work was in the Church of St. Edward the Confessor, a small Catholic place near what used to be Otterbourne Manor (the place still exists but is diminished in size). I had been driving one of my daughters to work in Chandler’s Ford for a couple of weeks and had passed the church on my way there. On my first drive, I noticed a Brigit flame in the building and wondered about it, but did nothing. I thought it meant there was already one there. Later, driving to my father’s, via Sparsholt, I passed the little church of St Stephen and saw a magenta flame there. Again, I thought it meant there was already one there, so I ignored it, wondering instead who might have planted it.
On the way back from another Chandler’s Ford journey, a full bladder forced me to stop in the church of St. Edward the Confessor to wait until the traffic subsided and to find a toilet. Inside, the church is quite modern, having been built in the early twentieth century. As I approached the table altar, behind which is a striking stained-glass window, I saw, with my inner eye, hands place a large, wide shallow bowl on the altar. It reminded me of the fire bowls they use outside in Egypt, to keep warm in winter. In the bowl was a small orange flame and I had the impulse to blow energy which ignited it so that it rose to the ceiling.
Stained Glass Window.
I next saw the Was-sceptre symbol anchor the flame into the lava layer below the earth’s crust. The upper part of the symbol went into the sky and there was a date palm behind the altar to which it connected. In the ancient Middle East, the Date palm was seen as the tree of the Goddess, the dates her fruit, the only food in an otherwise arid desert. I have worked with palm trees while living in Egypt and anchored many energetic palm trees, especially where people live at subsistence level. The feeling then was that the people would always be fed from the fruits of the Goddess. They would not starve but would have what they needed. (The palm tree, in ancient Assyrian religion represented the connection between heaven and earth and was sacred to the Goddess Ishtar. The Goddess, in her many guises, is often depicted as residing in a tree, giving her ‘fruits’ freely).
The Palm means Life. Pure and simple. Especially in dry times.
While I was in Luxor, I read a theory that the Was-sceptre represented a giraffe. The bottom of the symbol represents the cloven hoofs of the giraffe, which are quite dainty, while the hook at the top, represents the head. The ‘foot’ of the sceptre touched the earth, while the ‘head’ could reach up to the heights and get the fruits from the tall palms. It was a medium between the food of the Goddess and earth. The symbol, in mythology, is associated with the god Set, who is the god of the hot, dry desert, an arid place where there are few resources. It is a staff of power, wielded by the priests. It symbolises the power to bring the Food of Heaven to earth and only those who could act as mediums between divinity and humanity could use it.
Other theories abound around the meaning of the symbol, of course, but in the course of my work, the Was-sceptre is always used to anchor flames deep beneath the earth’s mantle, and to anchor the flame to a higher level of the earth’s energy field. The sceptre itself is a strong ‘holding’, a rod of power, a connector. It keeps the energies stable, and in place, because the flame is an active energy.
So why was an Irish Goddess flame of Brigit being anchored by the use of Egyptian symbols in a small Catholic church in Chandler’s Ford? As I tuned in, I tried to sense what it might mean. What came back was something about the origins of Christianity being from the Middle East. Jesus was born there, after all. There was something about reconnecting the energies of this church to its origins, reconnecting it to its roots in Jerusalem. There was something about the original, unsullied beliefs around the goddess being brought back to common consciousness. That the Divine Feminine was once an equal partner to the Divine Masculine, each one valued for its gifts.
This was a small community church, albeit well used, and the hub of the Catholic community, yet it was the start of a series of connections between other, smaller, churches, all of Saxon origin and mainly Church of England. I was raised a Catholic, and attended a convent until I was ten years old, going to mass every Sunday, which I hated. But out of choice, I also went to the evening devotions. This I loved. There was a sense of ancientness here, between the incense filling the church and the hymns reminding me of ‘Faith of our fathers’, my favourite hymn. All those dungeons, fires and swords! back then, I felt very connected to an energy that seemed far removed from the God we were being taught about in school and at Sunday mass.
When we relocated from the country to Dublin, I was educated in a private, protestant school and lost that religious connection but I loved the school, nonetheless. It was child-centred, as opposed to God-centred. Now, between the two educations, I had a fairly good idea of the difference between them and how it made me feel.
Years later, living in the UK and at an Initiation workshop in Glastonbury, myself and another attendee decided that, rather than go to the Goddess rituals that everyone else was attending, we would go to the local Catholic church where they were having a healing service. This was a new experience for me and a reminder of an older one. As I watched the Catholic ritual of communion and wine, in my eyes, the priests were enacting an ancient Egyptian ritual. The roots of these rituals came from the temples of Egypt. The woman who had come with me had seen the same thing, which was amazing to me. Even more interesting was that I could see the effect that the ritual was having on the wine, but also saw that it had no effect on the bread. And yet, at that time, only the priest drank the wine. Now, of course, it is different and everyone gets both. However, the bread is still nothing but bread, but the wine is charged with energy.
But that experiment taught me that the Catholic ritual was a very ancient, energetic process, with a deeper connection to a ‘Mother’. Yet it was the Spring Flame of Brigit being anchored here, in Chandler’s Ford, Brigit herself being a Goddess who became a Catholic saint. She wasn’t destroyed by the religion but rather incorporated into it. She is also a goddess of light and fertility, the returning sun after a dark winter.
I thought I was finished here, so went to look for a loo. When I came back, I was ‘instructed’ to do more so I stood in front of the altar again. This time, a magenta channel of the Magdalene descended with a small magenta flame inside. It reached to the floor and high into the sky, a veritable pillar of fire. Again, I felt the impulse to blow and when I did the magenta flame expanded until it filled the channel. I was given a portion of this flame to transport somewhere else. I already guessed that it was for St Stephen’s church in Sparsholt.
On my way out, I found the holy water font and blessed myself with it. On impulse, before I left my house that morning, I had applied holy water I had gotten from Arundel cathedral last year. This is another ritual that we have forgotten the original purpose of: the application of holy water in an equal-armed cross as you enter a sacred space. This entering ritual was to open the energy-field for the ensuing ceremony. The energies generated by the Mass fed you, energetically. After the ritual Mass, on leaving the building, you then applied holy water again, this time to seal the energy-field so that all the energies you absorbed would be retained, much like sealing the energy-field with the raku symbol after passing a Reiki attunement. Originally, the Mass was an attunement, but not in the way we pass attunements today. In the original Usui Reiki system, Mikao Usui ‘attuned’ his students every time they met. He shared the energy with them by sharing his own Reiki-field. They sat in that energy for the duration of the meeting, their fields open and receptive. In the original Catholic Mass, this was the way it was done too. The energy of the ritual was shared and absorbed. It was a ‘communion’, a sharing; an attunement. However, after the Synod of Whitby, that all began to change, Celtic Christianity, with all its blend of Christian and Celtic beliefs, was replaced by Roman rites and rituals… and control.
Having written this, but not yet posted it, I was with my father when the local village magazine came. Inside was a list of ceremonies for Lent, one being an ‘Ashing Communion’. This is where they put ash on your forehead, again in an equal-armed cross. (That cross signifies equilibrium). I wondered what the ash meant. The palm used in Palm Sunday is burnt and applied to the forehead. In Roman times, penitents wore ashes and sackcloth to repent for their sins. Now, everyone is a sinner, by all accounts. BUT it was the palm, and again, we come back to the pagan origins of Christianity, which feel far more real to me. The palm, sacred to the Goddess, is still being used in Christian religions, which has to be a good thing.
I’ve put the link at the bottom of this page so if you want to visit the church and partake of the energies there, feel free.
Spring is Brigit’s time. Her festival is celebrated, traditionally, on the 1st of February, but fire-work associated with Spring, spans a number of weeks. Imbolc is a celebration of the awakening earth when plants begin to grow and the crone of winter becomes the virgin once more. Spring vortices become active, bringing in new energies and clearing out the old. Becoming attuned to Brigit you will feel this impulse strongly at the beginning of each new year.
Winter has been a time of quiet, or rest, the death of the year. In the past, Winter was seen as an old woman coming to the end of her life. She had grown from the young girl in spring, became the Mother of Summer and now is the old woman, the crone of winter. She is associated with places of death and with vortices active during the Winter season.
But spring sees renewal and fresh beginnings. Life has never really died, it has just been sleeping. During Brigit’s time, it is reawakened with the fire of life. After the Winter Solstice, the sun is channelled into the womb of the earth, fertilising the Mother, so that crops will grow and feed the community. Brigit is a Spring Goddess, an aspect of Sovereignty. (Sovereignty is the feminine consciousness of the earth). The fire festivals brought hope and the promise of abundance. After a long dark winter of eating food they had stored throughout the year, they looked forward to eating green plants and planting their fields with corn. It was a celebration of survival, of having lived through yet another long, cold season, and emerging into the light and increasing warmth of the sun. It was a time of joy and celebration and, I imagine, a certain amount of relief.
The festivals were not purely symbolic. They were energetic practices designed to assist the physical earth and to keep her vitality flowing. A healthy earth means healthy people. In becoming attuned to the Brigit energy, through the mantle and the flame, you become aligned to the spring focus of fertility and become custodian of sites flowing with the energy of the Mother Goddess that you resonate with, and hold in care.
The Flame of Brigit is the light that warms the soil in Spring. The fire is the earthly representative of the Sun, allowing the seeds to germinate beneath the ground. Above ground, she is Grainne, Goddess of the Sun, the feminine aspect of solar energy.
Grainne too, as a Solar Goddess, is the transition between Winter and Spring. She is quiet in Winter, pale and wan but still shining. When Spring comes, she grows stronger, her light warmer. Together Brigit and Grainne bring light and warmth to the world. One from below and one from above. Grainne’s flame is white, a flame of renewal. Her flames awaken sites that have lain dormant and unused for centuries. She is the Divine Feminine light and warmth of the world.
Once these flames is are anchored in your energy field you can light these fires energetically, at sites where this was once done. That light then travels through the network of energy lines, bringing with it the promise of new life and allowing the seeds to grow and to reach for the light and warmth of the nurturing Solar Goddess. The seeds that you plant are not only physical, such as when you work at sacred sites, but also energetic. They are anchored at religious places too, such as churches etc. and illumine that which has become stagnant. Bringing new life and new inspiration.
Although you can find some information on the Soul Readings page, I thought I would go into a little more detail on how the past-life readings happen, as they differ from Soul Readings, which give you information on what you are doing when not in physical incarnation.
The first thing I do is ask your guides and Soul for your history. When I feel the energy coming in, I go to my internal study. From here, I can access all your Soul records.
In my mind, this room looks like an old gentleman’s study. There is a fire blazing in the fireplace, warming the room. On either side of the fireplace are large bookcases, filled with Soul records. In front of a large window, looking out onto a beautiful garden, there is a large desk where I sit and read the book of your Soul History. This ‘study’ is my internal access to what are otherwise known as the Akashic records.
Once I have retrieved your Soul History book, which contains both your past lives and the lessons learned, I am shown one of your lives that has importance in the one you are currently living. The energy of that life then comes into my consciousness and I feel the story emerging from there. In effect, I become your past-life personality and I write your story as if it was mine; I am experiencing it too.
This is an important aspect of the reading. In living your past-life personality, I feel, think and see everything from your Soul perspective. That means that as you listen to the recording, you are directly experiencing everything too. It is, after all, your past life experience. As you hear the words, the energy is transferred to you as a healing energy. Often your guides will give me information on why you have chosen this lifetime’s challenges and how you can use that information to move forward.
We come into each life with a plan of learning and a desire to experience and grow. There are people we have agreed to connect with, to learn from and sometimes to leave. Some of our lives are easier than others but all provide challenges to help us grow. The events in our past lives sometimes leave emotional imprints and beliefs that affect us in this one. We may feel as though we are going around in circles, trying to gain an understanding of why we continue to do the same things, repeating patterns we thought we had healed. Sometimes, no matter what we do, we cannot get to the bottom of it.
This is when a past-life reading is useful. We are not simply dealing with current life issues, but also working through older lifetimes. A persistent problem might have its roots in a prior existence, and in this case, a reading may help to uncover it. Once we connect to the root of the problem, we have the knowledge we need to heal the issue and can use the healing skills we have learned to resolve it.
When we are planning our next lifetime, we choose which issues to work through. We could be working through multiple lives simultaneously; lives which have a common energy or which are pertinent to what we want to learn in this one. People we connect with in this lifetime, even people we have challenges with, are often people we have known in those lifetimes. Like characters in a play, we know the roles we are playing with them. We wrote the script together. The challenge is often to overcome past issues with them and when we have achieved this we move on. This can be a very difficult concept to accept, especially if we have been in abusive or damaging relationships. But no relationship is a mistake. A past life reading can help us see the bigger picture, allowing us to let go, and grow.
Having a reading can be a profoundly moving experience and can take time to integrate. There are many lessons to be learned in each life we live, so seeing the roots of a problem can be the first step in overcoming something that has been an issue for a long time. Once we know it, we cannot unknow it and we will receive little prompts from our Soul-consciousness reminding us of where we are concerning the challenge we are working on.
I have found, through my own past-life work, that often I am given a past-life memory, or information about the details of the life in question because it is important for me to know what I am working on. I might have been working through that past-life issue for decades. This information usually comes when I am close to completing that particular challenge and therefore the information is helping me to consciously work on resolving it. It can still take years, but it can then be whittled down, step by step. Past-life readings are given because you have reached a place where you need to understand something. Having the past-life information assists you in understanding the root of your current circumstances so you can change your situation for the better.
That information does not remove the challenging circumstances, however. We are here to learn after all, but it helps us know what we are dealing with so we can work to overcome it.
When I do a reading, I am doing it from the perspective of the Soul, so it is important to remember that. Our Souls see our physical lives in much more expansive ways than we do. There is less judgment, and more need to learn as much as possible. Even a so-called ‘negative’ life can be an important vehicle for learning. So keep that in mind.
Once you have received your reading, and you still have questions, or you feel you need to talk about what has come up, you can contact me on my facebook page. I am more than happy to be a sounding board or to help you understand something you find difficult.
If you would like to further explore the Soul concept of past lives, read Dr. Michael Newton’s books: Journey of Souls and Destiny of Souls. These describe why, and how, we choose our lives and who we choose to live them with. If you want to expand your current learning, and understand the deeper reasons for your life, read those books. I cannot recommend them highly enough. They will help to you to understand your own past-life reading from your Soul’s perspective.
Today is St. Brigit’s day, in the Christian tradition, or Imbolc in the Celtic. She was originally a pre-Celtic goddess, of fire, of healing and of fertility.
As the dark winter days brighten and lengthen, fresh shoots appear. Snowdrops give colour to muddy ground and sparse grass. Bluebell spears emerge from cold soil and energy grows. This is the time when the fertility of the land awakens. The sun’s energy is drawn, deep into the earth, to warm the sleeping seeds and bulbs, to fertilise the land itself with its life-giving rays.
The ancestors celebrated this process. Every few years, in settlements, such as at Danebury, in Hampshire, or Fosbury, in Wiltshire – embodiments of the Mother’s womb – , a priestess would stand on the highest point of the settlement, the belly of the Mother, and bring down, through her body, the solar energy, channelling it into the waiting womb of the earth. The Sheelagh Na Gig, the Crone of Winter, became youthful Virgin once more.
These ‘Mother’ sites were part of a vast network of energies, through which the fertilising light of the sun travelled, even before its physical warmth could be felt. Once the symbolic egg had been made fertile, this energy fed many smaller settlements, some as small as single farmsteads, but all radiating the light into the soil, into the trees, into the hearts and minds of the people.
Giant Sheelagh Na Gig. Danebury Hillfort. Hampshire.
The serpent will come from the hole On the brown Day of Bríde, Though there should be three feet of snow On the flat surface of the ground
One tradition on Brigit’s day was to clean the home, to sweep out the energy of the past and to welcome in the new energy that would bring newness and fertility to its inhabitants. It was all done with intent. The past year was gone, and a new one begins. Clear out old dreams; dream new ones.
This is the time when new pathways are forged and plans for the coming year can be put in motion.
There are many well-known traditions, and all accessible on the internet if you search. The most important aspect, in terms of energywork is the solar fertilising of the earth and the lighting/maintenance of the Flames.
As a planetary healer, part of your work is to maintain these energetic flames. Planting one in your home, if it is connected to this energetic grid, keeps the energy flowing. I have one in my home and have anchored them in the homes of my daughters and friends – other Gaia Method Earthways healers – when I am impulsed to do so. For two weeks before today, the energies rise and the flames are tended. Sometimes, they change colour, sometimes other energies are added. I can see them changing, in colour and number, sometimes becoming three, sometimes reverting to one. Each flame is a frequency of creation, a creative fire that inspires and keeps abundance flowing.
There are ‘Keepers of the Flame’ all over the world, carrying out these ancient tasks, and there have been for millennia. Now we are re-learning their ways so that the earth can be fruitful and abundant. We can change our old ways and learn how to live in communion with the Mother. Learn to channel the light into her pathways once more.
St. Catherine’s Hillfort, here in Winchester — the view from my house — has a flame. This year it has become a white flame, rising from the hilltop into the sky, spreading a disc of silver around the surrounding landscape; the abundance of the Mother. A necessary thing, in these times of fear and confusion. The White feels pure, and light, bringing awareness and a feeling of spiritual power. The power of Light, not might.
St. Catherine’s Hill, Winchester.
The more we work with the ancient energies and ways of life, the better will be both our lives and those of others around us.
In searching for fertility sites, look for the signs, both through intuition and physical evidence. Where the stone-carved Sheelagh na Gig’s are, nearby you will find a site, waiting to be reawakened. Early Christian churches often use them, as they signified a place where the energy of Imbolc was activated, albeit in a different form. There are places all over the British Isles, and Ireland, that hold these energies. All it needs is for you to find them.
“Now is the time to tend the fires. To create anew your dreams for the future. Go into the landscape. Connect to the Mother, Brigit, Goddess of life, and bring fertility and life back into your lives.”
Since receiving the second level of this system, back in 2008, I did not realise how long it took to get through it. My own process through this system, as taught by my guides (or ‘Upstairs’ as I like to call them) is very much the same as yours. And it has taken me nearly twenty years to reach the point where I can go through into the third level. The Second level, the Venus level, takes time because the lessons of Divine love, in the Ruby sphere, take time to learn. Raising your vibration from the need for personal love to the Divine love takes time and effort.
Originally, my guides told me there were three levels, or Three Gates, but until now, I had not gone through the third gate. At the Stargate on Salisbury Plain, myself and Chris had been allowed through the first two gates, but were not ready for the third. That was in 2008. Now, sixteen years later, we have finally gone through the third gate. The final level. This is how long it has taken us to give up our lower Wills to serve the Divine feminine.
The third and final gateway/level is that of the Divine Will of the Mother. The following channelling is how the Goddess explained the three gates, or levels, and what happens during your journey through them. Having thought I’d gone through my purging, I can’t say I am looking forward to more, BUT, I am also excited to see how this new level of development looks.
“Now is the time to allow the mysteries to awaken in the hearts of men and women everywhere. In fact it is imperative that it do so. Without this knowledge the sacred work of rebuilding the planetary balance, and synchronization necessary to maintain balance cannot be achieved.
There are indeed three levels to this system, the first level is the journey through the wilderness. This is the wilderness of your own fears, desires and thought streams. In this part of the process there is a need to discard all unnecessary encumbrances and free yourself from outmoded thoughts and desires. It takes as long as the candidate requires and there is no deadline for its accomplishment. It is, after all , a soul journey, not a personality journey.
The second level involves learning to work as a unit, as a team. The Serpent Goddess priesthood, such as the Artemis and Diana mystery schools maintained a balance of unity in the souls and minds of the people and this now is the next level of development. The first level is primarily a solitary one whereas this second level is the level of relationship and unification.
The third level requires that the candidate undergoes a trial by fire in which all aspects of the personality are finally purged. With the completion of this last and most profound initiatic level, self-determination is finally achieved, and unity with both the God and Goddess accomplished. It is perhaps the hardest of the levels to complete but it is also the most rewarding.
When these three levels are complete you are then a fully fledged and self-realised representative of the Goddess/God.”
This is the level of Mary, Mary Magdalene, Isis, and all the Goddess energies that come through the blue ray of the Divine Will of the Mother. This is also the Will to follow the call of your Soul, and Divine purpose, as it is presented to you. In doing this, you heal and release all that does not serve the Will of the Mother. The only way you can know what that is is through letting go. Life will present you with what you need to do. Your guidance, at this point, is strong. You have an idea of where you are going. Through the preceeding stages, you have honed your gifts, and most importantly, you trust the process, you have faith that you are going where you need to be going. The choices you have made were the right ones.
At this stage, having relinquished your own personality desires, and will, your ability to create and manifest becomes stronger. But what you create now comes through the filter of the Divine Mother’s Will. You KNOW that everything you want is what the Mother wants. It is not selfish need that motivates you, but rather what the Divine Mother WANTS you to create. What would serve her? And through her, humanity? The creations have a direct impact on the collective unconscious and therefore you need to be able to create what is needed, not what is personally wanted.
The keys and codes you receive at this level have that in mind, for they are directly connected to working within the sea of human consciousness. They manifest the desired thoughtforms, the needed energies. They also raise the vibration of all the energies you have already integrated, raising them to a new, lighter vibrational level, including that of the dragons. All the preceding work you have done has trained you to work within this sphere, the Blue Sphere, and you are ready, finally for the last stage of development.
All along the journey, you have had littler letting-gos. Challenges to your personal value system and attachments. You have learned to see through the lens of the Soul. This has not come easy, but in your heart, you know that it is right. For the world to know the Love of the Mother Goddess once more, you know that many things need to be relinquished and new things shared. Now is the time to reveal yourself, to open herself to the world. In the first level you wandered alone, in the second you joined another, or two, and now, in the third, you share; you open yourself to share everything you have learned so that others can follow the path of the Mother and find their sacred heart of Love and Divine Will.
There is no longer any resistance or fear for your future, because you trust your own Self. You KNOW that you have a job to do and you do it. You are your Divine Self on earth, and when you look back on your life, and all the trials and challenges it took to get there, you realise that it all has been worth it and you would not change a thing.You are still human, with human feelings and thoughts, but you know how to manage them and how to heal them, so they do not control your life or make you feel helpless and hopeless. You move through them, because you know that there is no other way.But this is just the beginning of this sphere of development and as you progress through it, learning and teaching, you add more wisdom and more learning to it, more energies and more abilities. And on it goes.
At this level too the the activations continue. All is a process of growth. Manifesting, working with the higher vibrational frequencies, that come with the third level upgrade, become available. You are the channel, the embodiment of knowledge, wisdom, and the frequency of healing love. You are still completely yourself, but you are more healed, more expanded and much wiser. All your personal desires are ‘quiet’ as you realise that it is the Mother’s Will which guides your actions and not your own. This applies to where you go, how you express your gifts, etc, but it does not mean that you lose yourself. You become more of yourself. What you create from this expanded self is far better than anything you could have created with your own desires alone.
The Blue Sphere Attunement. Third level.
Anchoring you deeper into the collective psyche of humanity and into Divine Will and Power. From here, everything you do is for the good of the whole, working with Angelic intelligence: the guides and healers of humanity’s future. You begin to manifest, on behalf of humanity, under their guidance.
I have been struggling with heart palpitations over the last couple of weeks. My heart beats strongly enough to make me feel ‘rocked’. I asked upstairs what was causing it, and they said, apart from unconscious issues around Father, and having to ‘do as I am told’, it was also to do with the amount of salt I eat.
I asked my good friend Cheryl to ask as well, without telling her anything and she came back with the same answer, Salt! Plus another developmental issue that I won’t go into here.
So, having had this info, I realised that I now had the answer as to why so many people in Upper Egypt die of heart attack and stroke! They drop like flies. I have never seen anything like it. They eat a massive amount of salt and really bad quality oil from the government. I can’t even eat that oil as it gives me massive cramps!
And the salt issue? Well, Egyptians live off the stuff. They pile it into everything. The older generation of Egyptians, those now in their in 80’s and 90’s, didn’t have that problem. They are fresh butter and cheese, and didn’t have processed foods, like ‘stock cubes’ which are full of salt here.
So now I had my answer. I really should know better by now, not to ask questions like that, because invariably I get the answer and it is usually painful!
The exercise from my guides, which follows, speaks to the challenge of living a life that is in some way, difficult and which needs extra help from the Universal field of energy. Energy, which is there for the taking, giving us extra mileage and extra light, even in the darkest of times and places. If you need an extra kickstart then use this. It will change how you see your world and show you how to change it to one you want to live.
Sometimes the challenge of living a Soul Life, can take its toll on our personalities and bodies, so here is the exercise that will fill us with energy again, if done regularly. It is very simple, but I have been using it and it has helped me to recognise where ‘I’ feel stuck or powerless when my soul is directing my life. This is what my guides said about it:
“How valiantly the Soul struggles to survive, even though the body tires of its incessant demands. How weary is the heart that pulses its life throughout the physical system, and how unmet demands have weakened it. Try this:
A measure of Light, filtered through your consciousness; a particle of Light seeded in your heart, bringing renewed vigour, pulsing its life through and beyond.
Feel the light flowing through your veins, lighting up your physical cells and molecules, quickening them, expanding them, until all is light.
Then let that light expand all around you until your surroundings are filled with it.
See how much light is generated from one little spark?”
I read through this message quite a few times and realised that the answer to my heart issue was about far more than Salt! On some level I am not expressing my whole self, not allowing myself to be who I am, creatively and in my life. That is most women’s lot in this culture, and even in our own Western Culture. Feeling unfree to live freely. So, I will see how things change, after using this exercise, and let you know.
This came in a few nights ago. As it did, I could see it as though it was written on a scroll, to be signed on the bottom.
“I acknowledge my God-given right to Humanity, to Freedom and to Peace.
I admit to no ‘faults’, no sins, that are not of my ‘make-up’.
I deny the ‘right’ of others to usurp my power and my will for their benefit alone and I also deny the infallibility of ‘man’, as it pertains to my ‘womanhood’.
I deny the existence of the ‘Devil’ in myself and in others.
I deny the reality of ‘wrong-doing’ in my soul-centred actions.
I deny ownership of ‘man’s mistakes, lies, and entreaties.
I deny that I am false.
I deny all that is man’s projections of me.
I accept my Self.
I accept my mistakes.
I accept my own fallibility.
I accept my own lack of courage in the face of adversity.
I accept this does not make me weak, but human.
I accept the improvement of my life and my ability to create it and to recreate it.
I accept my power for what it is and for what it could be, good or bad.
I accept my flaws, my idiosyncrasies, my imperfections.
I accept myself.
I am the creator of my life and I accept responsibility for all that that entails.
Now, I demand Freedom, Power and Peace. Those are my God-given rights. I accept nothing less.
The Diamond Merkaba allows you to work within the nine realms of the Earth’s energy-field. Where the Seven gateway initiations appear to expand the energy consciousness vertically, these gates expand horizontally, moving outwards. Merkabas are vehicles of light, of different frequencies, allowing you to move in and out of specific frequencies and ‘worlds’ of vibration. They act as doorways into these worlds. Specific energies can be accessed within these realms when you are guided to move within them.
“The Diamond energies focus, with precision, the light of the Heart of the Mother, in all of the ancient sacred places. In this way, the Matrix of the Mother-light can expand into the network of light around the world.
“The pyramid is a diamond which surrounds your body. There is a point at each side of the body aligning you to the four directions. Each pyramid has its base, or foundation, at the Centre, where Heaven and Earth meet and join as One energy. (This is at your Earth Tan Tien) Focusing on it daily will raise the vibration of the body and allow certain connections with other spheres of existence. On a fundamental level, it is your connection to the ‘Elemental realm’. At the upper-most level, it is your connection to ‘All That Is’, or the Source. When all nine fields are active you can travel, at will, across the universe of energy; in and through, the planetary field.
When you travel together to distant sites we will assist you in connecting your Merkaba field with that of the site so that your energies become One with it, and the dimensional energies necessary for its activation can be accessed, and opened once again. This is a necessary part of the process and must not be forgotten.”
There are nine levels you expand into with this Diamond Lightbody.
The First level. Elemental layer. This is the physical world, the world of plants and physicality and the World of the Elemental energies which create our natural world. These are the spirits of vegetation in all their aspects.
The Second level is a ‘Light’ level. Just light. A much finer frequency than the very physically elemental first level.
The third level is the ‘Crystalline’ level. These give access to all the crystals around the world and allow you to communicate with their consciousness. Working in this layer, the entire energy field becomes crystalline.
The fourth level is ‘Neptune’ and the energies of sea consciousness. Accessing this layer allows you to work with the Elemental Beings of Water and with the Collective Unconscious of humanity.
The fifth level is the level of Archetypal symbols and knowledge. Energy as symbols lives in this layer. When we see Gods and Goddess energy this is where they ‘live’. We take from this field when we use their energy and when we use symbols of any kind. Symbols are pictorial representations of different kinds of energies and thoughtforms.
The sixth level is the Spider Woman level, at the core of the earth. Her energy runs through the planet in red and black lines. These lines continue out into space so that the Earth is held in a universal web. These are the webs of creation and energy which feed the living planet. The web is the creation of the spider women who spin their web of information and energy and which ultimately provides a system of communication for others.
The seventh layer is the Heart layer, the heart of the Mother. It is part of the band of energy which runs around the planetary field, just above the elemental vegetation layer.
The eighth level is an Angelic level. I found myself anchoring energies and creating lines with this level. The angelic feel is a higher frequency light level, outside of human experience.
The ninth, and final, level is a Gold layer, it is our/the Earth’s connection to All That Is. A solar level.
You may find that when you extend your field into each diamond dimension, that you find yourself in one different to the ones set out above, or in another order. This is because your gifts work where they are needed and the dimensions in which you find yourself are the ones you work in.
Once attuned to the Diamond Merkaba, it becomes possible to work within many layers of the Earth’s Gaia consciousness. The different levels are then activated when your Soul/guides tell you to activate it. Often, you see no reason for its activation, until later, when it all makes sense.
And, as my guides said above, when you are at a place which holds the higher vibrational energies you will feel the prompt to activate your diamond Merkaba to a particular level. If you are also attuned to the Star Tetrahedron, you may also be told to activate that.
Diamond Merkaba Attunement.
This attunements anchors the Diamond Merkaba in your energy field and gives you access to the Nne dimensions.
Down through the centuries mankind has endeavoured to find the source of his misery and suffering believing it to be inflicted by outside sources. However, he has consistently refused to look for the reasons inside of himself.
This has led to great wars, famine, and suffering across the globe and yet he continues to refuse the acknowledgment of his part in its failure. It is down to you, as a member of the human race to begin to look within for the source of all suffering. This has been said by many down through the ages, but as yet no-one has really heeded those words. Why is it, we hear you ask, that humanity consistently refuses to take responsibility for their actions, even though they see the outcome of those actions all around them, everyday? We answer you now, with kindness and compassion, that humanity refuses to bear the weight of its own choices and the outcome of those choices. It is as simple as that. If mankind were to realise, en-masse, that its choices effect everyone on the planet not just itself, then maybe he would begin to make better choices. It is only when one person refuses to acknowledge the results of his actions that suffering ensues and this suffering not only effects him but the entire world, as we are all connected in consciousness.
In order to effect change on this level many of you will need to consider that your choices all have consequences. As light-workers your responsibilities in this matter are huge. You are the ones who hold the new templates of thinking and belief which we ask that you act out, and own. It is through you that the template of suffering can change. It is through you that the new beliefs of kindness, awareness and compassion, coupled with a soul understanding, will be anchored on the planet but it is also your responsibility to ensure that you anchor these beliefs responsibly. This can only happen if you are healing your own, outdated, beliefs which state that suffering is the natural outcome of human life. We say NO. It is not the natural state of humankind to suffer. Suffering is the result of unnatural choices made on a daily basis. From a soul perspective you are incarnate on the planet to serve and to learn, through all your experiences but your experiences here, through successive lifetimes should teach you that belief and awareness can heal the world and create a place where humankind can change the name of the game. You are not destined, collectively, to suffer. You are destined, collectively to learn, and learning through responsibility is a natural outcome of a natural life. It is up to you now, collectively, to change the game. To change the outcome of your world’s future. What kind of world do you wish to create? What kind of world do you want to incarnate on? One of suffering or growth through learning? It is your choice.
We leave you now with these words:
If you decide to learn through growth then grow you will, even if this is challenging. But if you decide to grow through suffering this is also what you will create. But remember, you are all connected and, as light-workers, your lives effect others. What do you want for the world you live in? Choose now.
Do the hard work of Love and you will grow. Hate and you will not. We leave it up to you.
Adonai.
(I am using the masculine form rather than him/her etc. as it gets rather laborious, but we all know, hopefully, that messengers can be female and male…even if history would have us believe otherwise!)
“Throughout history there have been many attempts to ‘rein in’ the unruly elements of humanity. On some levels these attempts have failed but on other levels they have been successful. You cannot always see how a ‘development’ has succeeded unless you look at the many instances which have proved successful. In a way, what we are saying, is that each time a messenger has come we have tried to instil in them a feeling of ‘connectedness’ but this has not always worked, for one reason or another. Each messenger has come with, say. a letter of the alphabet. Each letter has its place and function within the alphabet and sits besides his neighbour in its proper order. In order to understand this you will need to suspend your own beliefs around what you see as a messenger’s role.
There are three types of messenger. On the one hand, each messenger brings his own awareness to bear. He is, after all, human, with all of his strengths and weaknesses. On the other hand he is in direct communication with other realms of existence and is able to tap into those realms’ with ease.
The challenge for each messenger is to suspend what he believes to be the ‘right way’ and to follow the way that we have set out. This is not always easy as you know, but each messenger is tested and trained to a high degree before he chooses the time to incarnate as a messenger.
The three types of messenger are these:
1) The messenger which comes as a pure channel in order to bring teachings to the masses. You can see many of these incarnate now on earth. These messengers bring a ‘note of truth’ and awaken in the listener/reader the remembrance of their soul’s existence in other realms. These are then the ‘awakeners’.
2) These messengers face the toughest of challenges, incarnating into ‘hotbeds’ of unrest in order to bring balance and the note of ‘service’ into the society in which they live. These souls see and recognise what is out of balance and then they seek to install the light-codes of ‘awareness’ which will open the hearts of the people in those areas. These messengers face many challenges as often the places in which they work contain deep layers of unrest and turmoil, going back many centuries which need to be renegotiated and released before the ‘seeding’ can occur.
3) The third class of messenger is the artist, the ‘Unifier’ of worlds through the written word, the painted canvas, whatever form that takes, and architecture. They bring their soul’s awareness into the physical world and create ‘light’ through their work. Their messages are at once works of beauty and of teaching, showing the masses the mystical ‘realities’ of life. Their images and words inspire multitudes of people to bring their own soul’s note into existence, through their own skills of creating.
Now not all messengers will choose only one route but will often use all three routes, to one degree or another, to pass on their message, but one route will be the dominant route. For this reason you see many people ‘channelling’ their soul’s awareness through the creative arts. It has an easier ‘flow’ than the first and second routes, as people are often more accepting of creations of physical beauty, be they words or images.
These then are the three types of messengers. The messengers themselves might change, but the message remains the same.
Each messenger brings with him his own soul intention but the community at large can misuse those intentions. But even when a messenger’s ‘plan’ has gone awry, it is not a complete failure. There are always some who have understood and who live those inspirations until the day they die. They are blessed by their interactions with the messenger and his work, and so their souls have matured in a way which others have not. The DNA of their children, and their children’s children, now carries the essence of the ‘message’ in their bodies and these children continue to be born, living their lives in the best way possible, before they reach their own death, in this physical world.
So you see, not all is lost. Seeds are sown, which will eventually grow into fields of ripe corn, which then feeds others. For those who carry this DNA, their lives are filled with trust in the Divine. They live quiet, focussed lives, influencing those around them in a quiet, but generous way. They become the ‘way-showers’ and in turn then become the messengers too.
We hope this helps you to understand the purpose of your work and the purpose of those who have gone before. Rejoice that your own ‘changed’ DNA will carry forward into the next generations to influence and ‘impress’ the people of the future, a noble cause indeed.
Now you see too why often these messengers have large families!
We hope that this has been of some use to you in your endeavour to understand the meaning of ‘messengers’. “
Every prophet and saint has a path but it all leads to the One Source. All paths are the same.
The Madonna Mantle is a frequency of light, anchored into the auric field, which my guides describe as:
“A frequency of light designed to quench the thirst of all those who seek replenishment. It is an energy frequency of the ‘higher nature’ and brings knowledge, as well as reassurance, to the indwelling Soul.
Many times, when the Soul is seeking knowledge, knowing it’s path is that of ‘Seeker’, it may feel anxiety building in the personality. The Madonna Light helps to reassure. It helps the personality to feel excited about the new path opening up before it and it helps the Soul to influence the personality in a calm, directed way. In this way, no splits occur and both soul and personality move forward as One. This energy looks like a soft lilac-blue mantle, a soft caressing mantle of the Mother. It surrounds the energy body, protecting it from outside influences which could lead it astray and therefore add to its anxiety.
Although it is of a high frequency, when placed within the energy field, it slows the molecules down, calming their ‘excited’ state. In this way, the fused personality can ‘slough off’ any unnecessary beliefs. Beliefs which are no longer a part of its pathway.”
During my more intense phase of development, in the first ten years of my healer training, I experienced this anxiety many times. When I knew it was time for me to energetically expand, I became nervous before receiving another attunement. I knew that the expansion of my energy-field meant that I would have to let go of something I was attached to. I can remember while in a long term relationship which was more domestic abuse than loving, and during which I was healing rather intensely, I worried so much before the actual attunement because I KNEW it would affect the way I felt about it. That it would uncover things I did not want to face and that which, once seen, could not be ignored. I’d then have to make changes I was scared to make. And yet, I also knew that doing the attunement was the right thing to do. That the healing was a necessary part of the path.
So, I went through it, because the expansion and ensuing healing was more important than the loss that it might create. When those changes happened, they were not as bad as I thought they would be, because I was ready for them. The expansion of energy led to growth that made me ready. My fears were no longer an issue and I found it easier to let go of the things and relationships that I no longer needed.As my guides said: “When love is your guide, there is no room for fear”.
I received this mantle while I was holding my weekly Reiki group and I had popped into the kitchen to make some drinks for the break. My guides came in and placed this mantle around my shoulders and then told me what it was. I quickly grabbed a pen and paper and transcribed the words that came into my head. The timing was perfect, because I was about to embark on a journey, (I did not now it then) that would challenge me on every level. It was a godsend. Really.
The next few years were so challenging that I very nearly gave up, but I stayed the course, and now am glad I did. I’m not sure though, that if I had not been given the cloak, or mantle, that I would have. It challenged core beliefs about men that stemmed both from this life and a previous life I was trying to work through. Again trauma connected to men. I was being challenged to see how men can also be wounded, and how their wounding has equally negative outcomes for them and for those around them. It took a long time, and there are probably dark corners lurking there still, but I get it now.
Once you have the cloak installed in your auric field, it will activate when it needs to. You may need its reassurance a few times in your life as you seek to overcome long-standing issues and soul challenges. You will know you need it when it comes into your consciousness and/or you feel it, or see it around it around your shoulders. Once your soul has become used to challenges of this nature the mantle will simply do its work without you needing to know it is activating. At this point your personality knows the road and can do without its help. But it is always there, adding that layer of support and reassurance.
You might also find yourself using the mantle while doing Planetary fieldwork. This happens when a site needs to be rested, or laid to rest. You will see, or feel, the cloak spread out on the ground of a sacred site, usually in the ruins of an old Cathedral/temple, abbey, etc. I have also used it on the West Bank of Luxor (Qurna) in my home. When it happened, it was a surprise, but when I thought about it, it made sense because we were dealing with many personal ‘wills’, all of which needed to be moving in the same direction without too much resistance! The changes that were coming to the home, where more than twenty people lived, needed the support of the Mother.
Sidenote: Although it is called the Madonna-Light Mantle, it is not necessarily related to ‘Mary’. It is more symbolic of the mother’s love when you are attempting to move into unfamiliar waters and need some reassurance and support.
This is what the Madonna Light gives you, the guidance of love.
I have been struggling with heart palpitations over the last couple of weeks. My heart beats strongly enough to make me feel ‘rocked’. I asked upstairs what was causing it, and they said, apart from unconscious issues around Father, and having to ‘do as I am told’, it was also to do with the amount of salt I eat.
The Gaia Method Earthways 