28^th August 2016.

I felt a lot of energy coming in so I closed my eyes. From each of the three Tan Tien centres I could see a coloured line emerging.  From my third eye a red line, then a white line from my heart and a black line from my belly. All three lines moved out in front of me and plied together, like yarn, now moving forward as one cord. At the end of this cord, I could see that there was a crystal point, but I had no idea where it was headed.

Then I saw, in the distance, an ancient book, open, and I could vaguely make out a very old library behind it. But the image looked like it was closed, like an inside-out umbrella, with the open end facing me. I began to open it out and flatten the image, stabilising the corners until it was full and accessible. I felt really excited doing this.

I ran into the library, racing to different shelves, taking books off at the speed of light. I was a blur! After seconds I had a large pile of old books in my arms. I could just about hold them! I placed them on one of the library tables and a librarian appeared. He was ancient and wore a grey/blue robe with a headdress that nearly looked like a voluminous nun’s habit. It was as if his head was covered in layers of first black fabric then layers of grey/blue. (I often see my own panel of Elders dressed in these colours). Naturally, he had long white hair and a long beard; just to show me his age I suppose!

He welcomed me and then said “Don’t forget this one,” and he walked to a shelf and took down a white and gold book, placing it on top of my pile of books. For some reason this made me feel overjoyed. He gave me the key that would unlock the information in the books. He said that it was time now that this information was presented to humanity. I was so overjoyed that I began to cry. It was a lot of knowledge being made available once again. I felt so incredibly grateful!

Just before I left, he stopped me and drew a symbol in red on my forehead. All I could make out was a circle with a pattern inside it.

A few weeks ago I had been offered this trip to a new part of the ‘library’ but I didn’t realise, until this morning that this is what they meant! Now I am excited to see what this is all about. Although I do seem to be getting new stuff about women’s future role in the world so maybe that is what this is. But I will have to wait and see! When they asked me if I wanted to visit another part of the library they also told me to ‘pick my thread’ so I picked three, obviously; red, white and black. As usual, my inner self is doing all of this so I have no idea what the thread colours represent! There’s no point in even guessing as I will find out when the information comes in.

This is not a bashing post, but a post about how easy it is to be manipulated when you are on Spiritual path. At the end of this post you will understand what I mean.

A few weeks ago I received a message in my Linkdin inbox from Sibyl English. She is a lovely singer and also the founder of a spiritual magazine for women, created in the U.S. Sibyl Magazine,  for the Spirit and Soul of Woman.

The message was an invitation to submit an article of my work, and if chosen by the magazine I would then be a writer in this magazine for one calendar year, writing one article per month. She sent me a free online copy of the magazine. Looking through it I felt that its intention was basically for advertising individual women and their work, as every article written by one of the contributing authors was accompanied by their advert. The magazine felt like a ‘healer’ catalogue. But maybe I was misreading it? I read the submission guidelines anyway.

HERE ARE YOUR EASY-TO-FOLLOW SUBMISSION GUIDELINES:

“Would you like to submit a contributing article sharing your insight and expertise for women, wisdom and wellness?

Our editorial staff have an ACCEPTANCE SEASON which runs for a brief 3½ month period within the calendar year.

• The start date to send in your article submission: April 1, 2016
• The DEADLINE for all incoming submissions: July 15, 2016 *Don’t delay! Send your article in at your earliest convenience.

Only one (1) article submission should be sent in at this time for review by the editorial staff. *If your article is selected for publishing, you will be contacted and given further details as to how Sibyl Magazine will go about showcasing your talent for the duration of 2017.”

Each article was only 500 words and there are 30 women writers, each one submitting their short article every month. I decided not to submit one. A week later my guides came in and started to give me info so I wrote down what they told me. As I was writing I began to ‘get’ that this was the 500 words for the article submission. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I was supposed to write for them. Maybe it was just my fear of being out in the world? The writing was exactly 500 words!

I sent it off and my guides kept telling me that it would be accepted. It was, but I didn’t feel excited about it.

This morning I received my congratulations email with instructions on how to proceed. I had been selected to have my literary works (??) published in the pages of Sibyl Magazine. Literary works? Who am I, James Joyce? I began to read the accompanying pdf, which I had to respond to with a yes or no. The entire piece of writing was one big manipulation of spiritual beliefs.

I could go through the whole piece of writing, pointing out which bit is designed to make me feel like an important spiritual writer, using flattery and telling me how I manifested this opportunity with the help of the Universe, etc, etc. And how lucky I am to have been chosen; not everyone gets this opportunity, AND I had to act fast or someone else might take my ‘place’. And, then we all know how important it is that us women work together in this world, sharing our knowledge and expertise.

But I was still waiting for the biggest hook of all… the Incoming Writers Offer! And quoting all the usual stuff, i.e. the Law of Attraction, not keeping yourself secret (God-forbid), you need to get your message out there stuff and all for a 75% discount!

At first, I thought this offer might be optional, so I had another look through the magazine, and sure enough, there was an advert on every written article. But did I have a choice, could I choose not to have an advert? Then I saw it, on the PDF, in smaller print and off to the side:

“As it is a requirement to purchase some form of advertisement, even if it is only a business card-sized advert, we dramatically slash our advertisement rates by 75%.”  So for the smallest, business card sized advert beside my writing, I would only have to pay the sum of $450, down from $1800. How generous of them! Effectively I would be paying them to write for them! They must be raking it in. But maybe I am being unfair, perhaps there are many women who benefit from this.

BUT, I don’t agree with manipulating and seducing women into believing something which is not true. And being seduced by a woman professing to be spiritual? Some might say that she was just being smart, entrepreneurial, etc. But I dislike and mistrust how these businesses capitalise on people’s spiritual work. This client-getting is very old-school and is a negative, male business model.  It feels greedy and dishonest.

Do you think, as someone who embodied the Divine Feminine energy, that you would have to go out and hook into people’s fears in order for them to buy your service, your energy, your creation?  Can you imagine the Goddess going out and looking for people, trying to convince them to buy from her? A door-to-door sales-goddess? If I am a person who wants to learn from the Goddess, do I sit down and wait for her to come and knock on my door or do I go in search of her?

Divine Feminine power lies in trusting. She gets on with her life, filling the world with energy, and people find her! She does what she loves, be it art, writing, healing, etc. But she doesn’t push! She allows. She does not tell you that if you don’t hurry, you will miss her. She doesn’t tell you she is the one who will make your dreams come true. She might make your dreams come true, but she never tells you that, that’s not what she is there for. She trusts your soul, and she trusts her own knowledge and the Way of the Goddess. THAT is woman’s way… fear is not!

So do not allow other people’s desire for money to make you scared. The people who need you WILL find you, because you share your work, you share your knowledge; you share your art. You might well sell your art/writing etc. but you are putting it out there on your terms and no-one else’s. Trust yourself always. You won’t miss the boat!

Just make yourself available, and when you are ready, the people you are supposed to meet, you will meet. Trust your Goddess-self to know the way!

 

Having been told to begin the parting process I began by separating last night. Omar went downstairs to check the animals, and his family, and I began to feel an energy in my stomach again. A line was placed in each h

and, each going in opposite directions and I had to blow energy along a central line. It was like the shape of a cob of corn with a leaf at each side.

Then I found myself pulling in the central cord, back into my tan tien. It went a long way! Once it was back in my belly I felt another connection, going in the same direction, but slightly to the left of it. There was a small gold pin at the end of a thin line, the earth anchoring pin. I gently picked it up and reeled it back into my belly too.

Then I saw myself placing a gold king’s crown on someone’s head. Might have been Omar.

I was still feeling energy so I waited to see what would happen next. A large diamond energy, filled with diamond layers, was impressed into the front of my energy-field and it continued moving into me until I was in the central diamond. This is obviously the downloads for the Diamond Merkaba, the energies which will need activating in Sahl Hasheesh. I didn’t know that that could happen! It just goes to show, we really are just programmable vessels!

It took me a little while to realise that the gold line connections were the first ones I had made when I first moved here. Within a couple of weeks of being here, I was being visited by a young Egyptian girl’s spirit. It frightened the hell out of Omar, who still believes in Djinns! This girl told me that she had been buried with her mistress, the Queen, because she held all of the queen’s secrets. It had nothing to do with her needing her handmaid in the afterlife! But this girl was my guide to the energies here and to what needed to be anchored here. I saw her a week ago, standing by my window, but she seemed faint, like a ghost rather than a living spirit. I didn’t understand what she was doing there…but now I do!

(Having published this two days after I wrote it, ad having had another, smaller, diamond Merkaba download, I think it is to do with the programs for both Sahl Hasheesh and Hurghada. They are obviously connected in some way. The reason I know that is because my guides asked me today, 17th, if I gave them permission for the downloading of the Light codes for Hurghada and then they requested the same permission for Sahl Hasheesh!)

Last night I went to bed reading Seth: The Early Sessions. This is literally the very beginning of Seth’s communication with Jane Roberts and Robert Butts. At one point Robert asks Seth why he, Rob) had had so many back problems the previous year and Seth’s response was: Vertebra 1 didn’t channel vital force through organism. Restrained by fears pinching the nerves. Expansion of spirit allows physical organism to expand, releases pressure.

Now I have always understood that physical pain is often caused by emotional issues, past and present, but this was the first time that it actually made sense! When we are scared our muscles get tight and this then puts physical pressure on parts of our body. It isn’t just that nebulous awareness that our emotions cause energetic blockages, but that our emotions and beliefs affect our bodies, in very physical ways! Our bodies react to our emotions and beliefs.

I have been grappling with a very painful neck for years, since I began to do this cycle of earth healing. But here in Egypt it has gotten so much worse. Before I went back to the UK for a year it was very painful and so I asked my guides to give me some understanding on what was going on with it. They suggested the Alexander technique. Most of my problem was postural, sitting at the computer all day, every day in the hot summers, usually crocheting or knitting when I wasn’t writing.

When I got back to the UK I went to see Melvyn, who I have been having treatment from since 2000, and he opened it up again for me. Everything was fine until I came back to Egypt! Within a month my neck was really painful and tight again. It’s another hot summer, and I am pretty immobile again. It’s just far too hot to go out so I spend all day in the flat.

I started doing some neck-muscle releasing exercises and that is helping but finding Seth’s words made all the difference. So this morning, up at 5.15am, I did some healing to expand the energy in my neck and loosen up the emotions that were causing the pain. That turned out to be interesting too as I learned another use for the Diamond merkaba. I placed my hands on my neck but then felt the urge to move them out into my energy field. I saw the diamond merkaba and felt the need to expand it. I slowly moved my hands out until it stopped by itself, at the 6^th layer. This layer is the Spider energy level. Her energy is black and red and these colours of hers run through the planet, in a giant web of energy and then out into space, a Universal web, the web of creation and energy which feeds the planet and holds it stable. I could see the energy open up around my head and had an image of Mary with her Star crown. I will to see the results of this, even though this merkaba might have nothing to do with my neck whatsoever… but everything to do with earthenergy-work.

As Gaia Method healers our bodies are also the reflection of the body of the Earth, and there is huge fear in the planet right now, so maybe we, as healers, and all healers, need to be putting way more energy into loosening up these tight spots and allowing the energy to flow back in, stabilising the areas and bringing in more love and less rigidity.